;)

2009-10-23T07:08:00.000-07:00

we bitch, and bitch, and bitch. she is still a darling to me afterall.

they are the reason for me to remind myself how blissful i am. very blessed.

not to forget edwin. he is in my heart, always.

hey. it's not dead.

2009-08-05T10:31:00.000-07:00

this blog is not dead like what tinki said.

i was just lazy. and now there's facebook, twitter and all that.

but i will start to be rajin again.

how about start from right now..eh..hehe...

hello!

2009-04-07T14:10:00.000-07:00

Hello people! It's been so long! I can't even keep up with the project 365. T_T

anyway, it;s going to be a long post.

it's 22:13 now. i am feeling lonely. very very lonely. edwin is not here. randall is not here. darren is not here. the mat-salleh floor mates are all not here. the fact is, everyone has gone to Ibiza, Spain for a 3-day holiday. without me, yes, without me. well, edwin did not leave me here alone on purpose. i chose not to go and i didnt want him to stay either. reason 1, the visa issue. reason 2, its time for us to have some space from each other and i need some quiet time too. ibiza is famous for sex and drugs. sweet. its not like he will do either one of them, i am just missing his presence in this room you know. i feel so much more colder in this room without having him here with me. weird as i usually feel very hot at night and sometimes i even sweat. whatever, he will be back tomorrow night and i will be working from morning to the evening, time will go by very very fast. i hope.

you know what is weird. from seeing each other zero day to sticking by each other 24/7. from celebrating none of the big days together to spending valentine's day, his birthday and our 2nd anniversary together. ok, lets start from feb 4th, the day i left seattle. i was feeling anxious then. very sad as i dont think i was ready to leave america. very excited as i get to see bf in another 12 hours. actually i was very worried and tensed on meeting edwin again. i was worried about the first meeting after so long. worried about his OCD-ness, talking about this, i even had to call noriko when i was at the airport to have her to bring me the lint roller, because i didnt want edwin to see there were like plenty of my hairs/dog's hairs/dust on my coat. =_=

so i arrived in london on feb5th. weird. the british slang and everything. saying cheers instead of thank you. then i flew to manchester. finally, after so long, after heard so much about manchester. i was very excited to see edwin and randall. the first hug was great. the scenes back then seemed kinda blur to me except the scene where the two poor guys with my heavy broken luggages. then i reached the place where he lives (it's a student accomodation). i have always seen his room through the webcam and finally got to see the real room. ehhe. it's kinda spacious (not anymore, cos it's filled with my stuffs!), he has his own bathroom, 6 rooms shared a kitchen and living room. very nice, just like a humble hotel you know. i am very glad to see all the letters from me are pinned on the board, our picture frame is on the table. (:

i still remember the moment when he picked up my hand and then held me close. i was shy then as we last held hand was like months and months ago. everything is great. we go grocery shopping. we cook and eat together. we go travelling together. he introduces his friends to me. he shows me the places where he usually hang out at. i attend classes with him (i kinda sneaked in. =p). all in all, we spend quality times together.

so yea, i am here in manchester for almost 2 months now. he makes me fall in love over and over again. everytime he smiles, my heart melts. i hate to say this but i can tell you that i am afraid or dont even want to be in a long distance relationship anymore. having your love ones by your side is just so great, when you are sad he is there for you to hold and you feel as if everything is going to be alright, no more virtual "*hugz*" which you can only receive from msn. its true that we often have quality conversations on msn but what is different now is we can look into each other eyes while having those conversations. i used to be so shy that i cant even look at my love one when he is singing (be it to me or just singing for fun), but now i just cant take my eyes off him when he is singing as he is so cute that i cant resist. hahahahahaahhahaha.

i think i have crapped enough. lemme upload some photos!

this was taken on my last day (supposingly la).

deli randall never failed to cheer me up. the person that i constantly talk to, be it when i was in america or now here in manchester. i never feel bored with him by my side eh. when edwin is not available for me, he is always there for me to disturb! he is that kinda friend that i want to keep like, erm, forever. (:

the city/town hall in manchester city center.

i think we took this when we just gor back from Edinburgh.

the tower bridge. it was so windy and chilly.

nah. my favorite person.

darren on the left. the person i hang out with other than edwin and randall la. ish.

i feel so blissful, feel so loved, and i think i am under a love spell. (:

#5,6,7,8

2009-03-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

div align="left">project 365 #5 March 14th, 2009: dimsum

yummy dimsum. good company of friends. but upset stomach. damn pms.

project 365 #6 March 15th, 2009: kennysia

it was a very very very very brief meeting. it was so embarrassing as i did not know the direction of manchester town very well considering i have been here for a month plus now. =_=

project 365 #7 March 16th, 2009: banana pancake

"Can't you see that it's just rainin' There ain't no need to go outside But baby, you hardly even notice When I try to show you this song It's meant to keep you From doin' what you're supposed to Like wakin' up too early Maybe we could sleep in I'll make you banana pancakes Pretend like it's the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just rainin' There ain't no need to go outside"

project 365 #8 March 17th, 2009: good friend

i miss you all. i miss you weeeeeejiannnnnnn.

#2,3,4

2009-03-14T07:52:00.001-07:00

project #2 March 11th, 2009: farewell

it supposed to be a farewell for me but i chose not to fly. (:

project 365 #3 March 12th, 2009: out of boredom

he crafted my name with the banana skins. and i made his with the orange peels. sweet.

project 365 #4 March 13th, 2009: refreshing

a pretty flower, a happy me.

project 365

2009-03-10T08:00:00.000-07:00

Ha! I am doing it too!

so here it goes....

project 365 #1: March 10th 2009

today is my very last day in manchester. aih. time flies. it's been like 5 weeks? to stay or not to stay? uh.. and.. that's the roses on our 2nd anniversary. (:

stupid cupid

2009-02-14T14:20:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day ;)

gong xi fa cai

2009-01-27T12:43:00.000-08:00

wishing you a prosperous year!

on LDR, again

2009-01-20T19:23:00.000-08:00

watch this video for those who are in LDR. it's so trueeeeeeee (at least to me la!), and it's hilarious at the same time.

have you taken notes:
-remain social
-talk it out
-VOIP (very useful and cheap! msn or skype not that bad either la actually)
-express yourself

good luck in your ldr!

for Airene

2009-01-18T09:24:00.000-08:00

Bitch (this is just how we call each other...), this is for you!
I walked in the cold winter day to the Starbucks to do this!!
I went through pictures in the facebook one by one as I dun have my external hard disk with me.
=(
But it's all worth it!!
Call me when you see this!! you'd better huh!!!

reminiscence

2009-01-14T00:03:00.000-08:00

this is the first post in year 2009. lets make it sweet.

remember there was once i received those love notes from him like back in some time last year? i finally finished reading them! they are too precious to me and i actually only take them out to read when i am really really really extremely upset about things or missing him. i am busy packing up lately cos i need to ship my stuff like tomorrow, so i decided to read all of the notes! i was smiling all the way when i was reading them, i was thinking like, gosh where did he copy the notes from, gosh why is he so adorable, gosh no wonder i love him so much, lol. anyway, now i read all of them, unfolded the love origami obviously, and i didn't know how to fold them into love shape again!

btw, this is one of my favorites:

Dee (now you know what he calls me), you must be really tired today as you keep 'running' through my mind, and on the other hand i must be a really bad 'shooter' as i keep 'missing' you!hahahaha i love you ***** (this one too geli, lol). love, edwin.

lol. anyway, he promised to fold them into love origami again the next time i see him!

anyway (why so many anyway one), i finally opened up to him yesterday. like you know, the anxiety that i am having. honestly, i am getting very anxious as i am going to see him again, erm, like very soon. i told him i am getting really worried about things like how if the flight crashed and things happened and i don't get to see him. and i really dont want to be like what happened last time. T_T like i get very very sensitive over things.. T_T.. paranoid.. and all those very stupid things...

T_T then he called me silly girl, always think of those nonsense, always get other people business into our relationship (which is very true la. hahahaaha), and let others influence our relationship then la la la la ( he is very long winded one!). but truthfully, ever since we got into those drama last year (wow, last year..hahaha, as if it was so long ago), he is now very very very caring. oh well he claimed that he has always been that caring. hmm.

there are times that we have serious conversation, but there are times we make fun of each other. like you know lately he calls me daisy and i call him donaldee, lol.. but the other day he called me duckling and i hate it because somehow i think that duckling is ugly... T_T ... ooohoooo i love that guy so much.

enough of craps, i should go to bed now. more packing tomorrow. byebye!

bye 2008

2008-12-31T13:48:00.000-08:00

it's that time of the year again. i am glad that it's the end of year 2008. my quarter life crisis came early. it started this year and i prayed that it will end by today as of 31st december 2008. i actually had a not-so-bad year, but it definitely not the best year in my life. it's been a rocky year; it helps me to understand the line "life is like a roller coaster".

early this year, it was my first time to step into the working life. in this job, it gave me a lot of firsts. my first experience in getting punches, bites, kicks, verbal abusive words (no people actually cussed or swore at me before, i am very serious about this). my first time in dealing with police officers, fire department, medical person, and also my first time in seeing real fire happened in front of me! and they were all related to sweet innocent kids.

the money i was earning this year was little (working with non-profit will not make you rich). however for the peanuts that i was earning, it was sufficient for me to pay for my own bills. for the first time in my life, i did not have to depend much on my family. but sadly, i did not earn enough to send home some money. T_T

i kinda shut down myself this year. i became very quiet. i did not share a lot of my feelings. i might appeared to be a very happy girl, well, i was not. it was all cover up. when looks can be deceiving, well, expressions can be too. i only chose one or two friends to listen to me when i was really down, other than that i just kept it to myself, and i dealt with my own problems.

i almost become an alcoholic and a drug addict (partly wasn't true). until this point, i think i am making a lot of people started to worry about me. =_= oh well, i noticed that i drank a lot this year. i drank with colleagues after works. i felt like drinking whenever i was down. i AM addicted to stouts. i am glad that we did not store liquor in our apartment, so a lot of times, they were just the thoughts of getting drinks, but i did not drink in the end! Hee! as for the drug addiction, it's all because of my sleeping problem. a lot of times, i am very tempted to take sleeping pills. but i did not, cos i was lazy to walk to the pharmacy to get them. so i never had any sleeping pills, but by just having the thoughts of getting those pills is very very bad.

it was actually a depressing year. i missed home so much. my very last grandparents passed away. my dad admitted into hospital and i can barely do anything about it. it got me so worried, i cried when i heard my dad was crying over the phone on freaking father's day. i told mom i need a break, and i went home during summer. it was good to see my family and friends again. And was excited to see bf after such a long time, but was anxious at the same time. i was being extra sensitive to whatever he said or whatever he did not say or do. i called off the relationship a few days before i had to see him. i cried almost every freaking day when i was in penang and i bet no one even noticed about that except my close friends. then it came to a point where i had to make a decision on whether was it worth to fly to KK to see him and not to waste the air ticket that he had already bought me. i was glad that i did fly to see him. i held back my tears so badly in front of him, i wanted to say "hey i love you" so badly but we two were holding it back. i guess we were worn out because of the long distance relationship. until one morning i burst into tears and from there we talked about it, and since then things were great. we got back together and i swear that trip was one of the best in my life!

then back to the states, i was busy with works. i am not happy with works though, there are a lot of reasons but whatever it is, Jan09 is my very last month. i decided to go home as well. i was glad that i made the choice, at the same time, truthfully, i was upset with a broken american dream where i once fought so bad to come over here. well, one day i will be back here, who knows rite.

year 2008 could be a tough year for me but it helped me to see that i was blessed with a lot of nice people around me. i have a long thank you list, but to a few of specific ones:

uncle&auntie, for taking good care of me when i was in portland.
kelly&peh, you guys are so nice and kind! thank you so much for taking me around in seattle and also introducing me the job!
bitchy housemate, thanks for keeping the drama between girls to minimal (LOL), thanks for keeping me accopmpany when i am lonely.
weejian, i hardly say nice things to you but you know i treasure you a lot. thanks for being there for me, and keep me comfort when i cry. i enjoy being '8' with you!
jacob, you are the best listener, you listen and you do not judge. me heart you big big time.
jamie, if only i could understand you better. but you never failed being a great friend to me.
randall, thanks for always encouraging meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! i owe you big one.
pam, keep blogging la you.
sean, you never failed to make me smile. why do you always appear when i am at my loneliest day? ngo oi nei, arrrrrrrrrr. lol
to the one that name shall not be mentioned, you know who you are and your one tight hug makes my day seems brighter. =)
wayne&andrew, i heart you too, especially weiyong. wahahahaa

of cos my zhuzhu also, you make me realize that my life wasn't that bad afterall. wahahaha. i love you la. =p

last but not least, to my donald duck. thanks for believing in daisy when she almost gave up on you. dee, i love you, i really do!

bye la year 2008. i don't want to think about 2008 anymore.

year 2009 treat me better will ya! hopefully this coming new year will bring me a good job, more family times, teach me to love better, a better photography skill, not be broke anymore (i am poor but i am rich in love, mind you), teach me to be patient and kind... there are so many things that i want to do in year 2009. i am so ready for it.

rock on year 2009!

season of love

2008-12-22T23:18:00.001-08:00

I know it's the same picture I posted in Facebook, hehe, I am pretty lazy. =)

给我，你（们）的一封信

2008-12-15T22:12:00.001-08:00

最近工作都不开心的。生病了，要请病假也得想了三番四次。终于请了病假，在家里休息却感到愧疚。最近干什么事都提不起劲的，好无聊哦。脑子里塞满了一堆ideas, 提起了笔却写不出心中的感受，也画不出想要表达的情绪，也说不出一个所以然究竟发生了什么事。有时候我在想，如果我是那些小孩有多好，不喜欢就可闹别扭，生气了就随性的发泄情绪，再不来就把自己躲在一个角落搞自闭。可是回到现实生活中，我却不行；就因为我是个成年人，有责任感的成年人。我是一个不喜欢多做解释的人，也不喜欢对某些人做无聊的交代；人家对我再多的误会，我都学会了一笑而过。随着年龄的成长，也学会了什么事情都好都要看开一点，从那里跌倒就从那里爬起来，要相信明天会更好，一次的失败代表着又一次的学习。人往往就是嫌恶的，知道你满面笑容过得好好的，他那嫉妒的心就在想要怎样把你那一面面的笑容慢慢的撕下，人就是那么的自私。还好，我知道也领悟这个道理，愈强要则强，没什么事情是解决不了的，再难的问题也有它解决的方式。我可不是好胜，也不是野蛮，更不是顽固。我只是知道，未来的日子会怎么样都归于我手中，我可以轻易且不责任的把它画下句点，我也可以毫无意识的过着每一天，但是我选择了快快乐乐的，也要尽我所能的创出一道彩虹来。人有时候就需要那么多一点点的勇气，多一点点的爱，把自己的人生活得更精彩，所以啊，从来不要对朋友吝舍的给与关怀，你可能会发现施比获更幸福。我自己呢就挺幸福的啦，子威都对我很好，很想把我的幸福与你分享，不过话说回来啊，只有你一个人能左右自己的未来，要活得精彩还是遗憾，就在于你的选择。

梁静茹- 给未来的自己

站在狂風的天臺一望無際
這一座孤獨的城市
在天空與高樓交接的盡頭
誰追尋空曠的自由

陽光覆滿這一刻寧靜的我
隔絕了喧囂和冷漠
川流不息的人遊蕩在街頭
誰能聽見誰的寂寞

找一個人惺惺相惜　找一顆心心心相印
在這個宇宙　我是獨一無二　沒人能取代

不管怎樣　怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣　至少我很堅強　我很坦蕩

夜幕籠罩燦爛的一片燈海
多少人多少種無奈
在星光裏遺忘昨天的傷害
一覺醒來還有期待

我不放棄愛的勇氣　我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住　一個最美的夢　給未來的自己

一天一天　一天推翻一天　堅持的信仰
我會記住自己今天的模樣

有一個人惺惺相惜　有一顆心心心相印
拋開過去　我想認真去追尋　未來的自己
不管怎樣　怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣　至少我很堅強　我很坦蕩

我不放棄愛的勇氣　我不懷疑會有真心
我要握住　一個最美的夢　給未來的自己
不管怎樣　怎樣都會受傷
傷了又怎樣　至少我很堅強　我很坦蕩

未來的你　會懂我的瘋狂

i don't know.

2008-12-08T19:35:00.000-08:00

i don't know how should i begin, nor how should i end it.
i don't know what should i keep, nor what should i throw away.

......

a broken american dream

2008-11-25T03:05:00.001-08:00

not really.

i made the choice, didn't i?

sup

2008-11-16T05:02:00.000-08:00

sup. i m at work again. another overnight shift. life is boring lately, nothing much happening else from drowning myself in work. if only there's 48 hours a day. i need massage. more times for myself. to do a little bit drawing or doodling. maybe a little bit cooking. to do laundry. to walk around downtown. to take more pictures. to do a little bit catch up with friends. more pak-thor-ing. practice japanese. more drama. to sing k. to play with my phone. more blogging. to clean up my room.

my room is so messy that i don't even want to live in there anymore.

welcome to obamanation

2008-11-04T23:44:00.000-08:00

was working at girl's program today (teenager girls) and we have been sticking our butt on the couch and glueing our eyes on CNN for the latest election result. the girls were all so anxious omg. they were like having obama camp in the program. it was especially nervous for all of us when his electoral votes were sticking at the number of 207, it then suddenly jumped to 293 votes and he was announced to be the next president.. the girls were like jumping and shouting for joy and i definitely saw some tears at the corner of the eyes.

most of the american citizens they were so into politics ok, i mean at least the people around me. this colleague of mine was asking me about who do i support yesterday. i was like obama. she asked why so. i was like i don't know i just think that mccain is too old lol. then she was like "to me, family value is very important...." then she kept explaining to me she will vote on whoever that have stronger family value. then i was like i wonder who has a better view on love and relationship. at that moment i can feel that she must be thinking its useless talking to me... =p

anyway, my point is, america is ready for a change, and i wonder when it's malaysia's turn?

oh ya. obama delivered a very powerful speech too. =p

happy belated halloween?

2008-11-01T03:47:00.000-07:00

or, maybe merry christmas?

i can't decide who sing the better "the christmas song", michael buble or christina aguilera or josh groban or jesssica simpson. hmm.

today we brought kids out for trick or treats. everyone looked so cute can. and i dressed up like a computer nerd. it was a successful one. first, randall saw me online he was like "you are super nerdy". then i went to school to get this girl outta school, when she saw me across from the classroom her expression was priceless. then for the entire day i kept hearing kids saying i am like a nerd. haha. my $9.90 was kinda worth it.

been so busy lately. i hardly had any me-time. my work place is like my first home. T_T my schedule not even the same as that tan airene anymore. she is leaving soon. T_T so soon. i am leaving with her. i want to. i want to i want to. go home. probably not. probably manchester. hmm. edwin is going to rome, venice, and milan. argh. i swear to myself no matter how he tempted me i shall not be influenced. next year dee i will be there. (;

oh i learned to knit lately. my first masterpiece is a scarf. a lovely scarf for someone special. pictures later, after he received it. heheheeeeeee. knitting is so addictive though. and it's not cheap at all. for the price that i paid for all the yarns, i can probably get a lot of ready made scarfs from the store. oh well, it's the thought that counts right. (:

what else what else... oh ya... my life in the states have been interesting. i am glad that i have the chance to deal with 911, the fire department, the emt, the hospital, the police officer... what else my job gonna offer me. the doctors in children hospital are so cute. the firemen that came today look hot. aw, i am sick. people make me sick. lol

you know ar, the thing that i hate to hear from my friend the most is..."eh do you want to join us for tonight gathering? me, lik, suat and ted." knowing that i can't be there for sure, don't tell me la........ T_T but honestly, i miss you guys a lot arrrrrr. jamie la, weiyong la, andrew la, weejian la, suat la, ted la, lik la, rishant la, juliana la, i miss the gang. i wonder things will still be the same 10 years down the road. but one thing i know for sure, thing will not be the same when one gets a gf or a bf. you know like jamie, hclf one. i am not that good either. aih.

i am actually getting paid for blogging. because technically i am working right now. it's 4:42am. i am so freaking tired. i am done with all my tasks. i am just waiting for the clock to strike 7am and i can leave. go back to my lovely bed before i have to work again on the same day at 4pm..until the next morning 7am. lol. it sounds tiring. but truthfully, i always feel so tired at the end of the shift, but when i got home and read all the messages that edwin left for me even it was just one line, i felt so energetic right after. and i end up staying up instead of going to bed. T_T

and honestly, i think i have sleeping problem. you know like disturbed sleep. lots of dreams and got woken up easily. a lot of friends around me rite they are actually consuming sleeping pills to go to sleep, some of them even take shots to go to bed. i hope i will not end up going to pharmacy to get sleeping pill. it's kinda stressful sometimes when you know you gotta work certain hours the next day but you just cant seem to go to bed no matter how tired you are. it's very very frustrating.

it's only 4:50am right now. 2 hours and 10 more minutes to go. probably i should do my monthly report, but i am lazy.

you know... my mom always tell me that she feels as if she has already lost a daughter, she says i dont miss home nor care for them. it's pretty sad when i know that. well you know don't say a person never miss you or care for you, you never know how much a person is actually missing you or even care for you, it probably just never been expressed you know.... i learned that from the past relationship. lol... but this is not something to laugh about... =(

mommy if you are reading this...i really miss home...sometimes how i wished that you will just ask me to go home...

it's 5am. 2 more hours. i can do it.

5:36am. i hate myself for not making time for myself just to go walk around and take pictures of autumn leaves.

24th SurpriSe biRthDay PaRty!

2008-10-30T12:45:00.000-07:00

so ariney and noriko worked together-gather to organize a surprise birthday party for me. i've got so touched ok although it was not expressed on my face. lol. aireny even created a private event in the facebook and invited my friend which i had no idea at all. T_T

i kinda know there's a surprise for me on my birthday but i didn't know it was that extreme T_T. i was really really really happy can. their mission was to get me drunk as their mission accomplished T_T. it's a bad idea to show your friends that you are a high tolerance drinker on normal days, because some day they wll revenge one T_T.

so they got me to puke a few times, and until today i denied that i was drunk. because i remmbered what i did on that night. i remembered dialing edwin's number and aireney talked to him and i also rememembered telling them i wanted to go for dimsum the next day T_T.

to cut the story short, lets look at the pictures!

i think the balloons look lovely.

everytime i was given a new drink, i had to check it out what was that first.

too happy i think.

pressie from eric!

notice the different drink everytime.

these are the reasons..... T_T

i totally ruined the cake. lesson learned, never asked an almost drunk birthday girl to cut the cake.

a new drink.

hmmm..yummy drink.

hence, a happy girl.

i got so touched after reading all the messages in the socks?

my bucket of drink and aireney.

i was so so so so so so surprise to see them!!!!

noriko and kahlua in the choco cup!

1 year old....~

haaha.. a really great surprise to see Jayme on my birthday!

and of cos kelly and peh keong!!

Amers and Doney!!

Lindsay and shellieeeee~

Antooooni!!!

almost gone liao la T_T

it was really really great to see both of them again!

Nori, me, shellie and someone behind who was acting cute.

austin and anna the therapist!

Aaron!! He is very sweet!

ok i noticed that i did not upload eric's picture. but i am lazy liao. well.... it was a fun fun fun fun fun night!! I love it!

the greatest thing is, i did not have hang over and airney woke up later than me!! LOL

期待

2008-10-28T21:57:00.000-07:00

他回来了。

ming turned 24!!

2008-10-18T17:14:00.000-07:00

what can i say? i am the luckiest girl ever! having all the lovely people around me, i am feeling so so so blessed. thank you people for making my 24th so special. thank you Dee for saying the warmest words to me, thank you roomie for planning the birthday party, thank you noriko for helping airene in the surprise birthday party...

i definitely have more people to thank to.

thank you all for the phone calls and messages, from back home malaysia, from down under, from Uk, from all over the states, from hong kong, etc etc. although you guys like woke me up in the middle of the night just to wish me happy birthday, i was really really happy. thank you all for the different versions of birthday song, no matter you sang it to me through phone, or web cam, or in person, it definitely hit my heart.

talking about the birthday song, i have to thank the Bemidji-gang!!! so yesterday i received a call from an unknown number. i picked up the phone and what i heard is a lot of people introducing themselves, probably like more than 10 of them, telling me that they were from fm90 or something. after that, they started to say all the wishes individually and ended up the phone call with a birthday song. i didn't even have chance to say thank you and they hung up the phone. so i re-dial to the same number, and again they were telling me they were from fm90 and started to sing birthday song again, and then hung up. i was like wth!! but it was really really creative and meaningful to me!! CHLOE TAN, if you are reading this, thank you so so so so much, i so know that you are the leader of this bemidji gang.

ok back to the thank you list.

see how lucky i am! and they are all in pink or purple, so ngam!

my first pressie from that sweetie roomie (for once i dont call her bitch). it was an early birthday surprise, like 2 weeks ago.

all the lovely messages from you guys. i was really touched after reading through. i didn't know all my colleagues like to work with me so much. they probably just wanted to make me happy on my birthday. lol. anyway, one of the messages saying that i am getting old!!! don't let me find out who is that!!

the birthday cards and gift cards. so so blessed la!

thank you for all the messages that you guys left me in msn.

thank you all for the sweet messages that make my day!

thank you all for the messages on my facebook wall!

thank you all for the gifts that you sent me through facebook. lol

thank you all for the text messages!!!

thank you all for the pressies!!

thank you for organizing this surprise party!!

last but not least, thank you guys for coming to the party!!

i had a blast on my birthday, without you guys it won't be that meaningful at all. i sincerely wanna thank you guys from the bottom of my heart. i didn't know that even old people like me can have such a fun-filled birthday!! thank you thank you thank you and thank you. i love you all!!

i am gonna post up the birthday party pictures on next post! Heeee!!

silver lining shots

2008-10-15T12:27:00.001-07:00

i don't know whether silver lining shot is only for the sky or what... but oh well, below are my own definitions and collection of silver lining shots. lol

oh btw, they are all taken with iPhone!

enjoy!

rainbow!

towson university.

my latest one, when Ling came to Seattle.

another one, at Ballard Locks.

at the harbor in Baltimore, Maryland.

even camwhoring can get silver linings!

in the metro bus. i really make good use of my phone.

at the universal studio, LA.

another camwhore picture. can see that tiny tiny linings?

at the art festival in Burien.

the sky one.

can you spot the silver lining for this one?

so how do you like it?

LingLing visits Seattle!

2008-10-14T11:46:00.001-07:00

pretty ling ling came to visit pretty seattle.

everything and everyone are so pweeeety.....! we had a fun filled weekend!

happy anniversary

2008-10-07T13:02:00.000-07:00

it's been one year :)

dimSum

2008-09-30T23:08:00.000-07:00

dimSum really rock my world.
had too much dimSum lately, and it reminded me of this song which introduced by randall long long time ago.

"Dim Sum Girl" by Notorious MSG

this is not the original music video though. i just thought this is hilarious.

first

2008-09-30T19:33:00.001-07:00

my first birthday card and hopefully more to come!

i had krispy kreme today. it's been such a long time.

delvinc, are you missing krispy kreme?

it is still as good as before. you know ar krispy kreme originated from north carolina. but the founder, vernon rudolph, he bought this secret recipe from a french chef in new orleans. krispy kreme has a 70 years history. amazing huh. when i was in malaysia i tried out the j.co and big apple donuts, they were not as good as krispy kreme though. the original glazed donut from krispy kreme is very very very very very very good, it is so soft and it is best served warm, just put them in the microwave for 30 seconds and you will in love with it immediately!

yummy.

steamboat weekend

2008-09-30T19:12:00.000-07:00

last weekend, we spent 2 days 1 nite at HeanYew place. thanks to Ian drove all the way from Lacey (South of Seattle) to our place to pick us up then drove us all the way up north to HeanYew house.

anyway, we had steamboat!

fooooooood!!

a group picture before makan makan.

my favorite of all. the piggy blood jelly?

kelly gently put in the ingredients.

i love this shrimp ball!!

something hidden inside!

finish liao.

all hungry ghost.

it was a fun weekend. we played chor dai dee. we played wii. we watched movie. we went to sing K. ahhhh.. if only we can do this more often you know....

birthday wish list

2008-09-24T12:02:00.000-07:00

you know i went to the puyallup fair the other day, i participated in this lucky draw contest to win a return air ticket from southwest airline. so this company have been calling me for the past few days. they told me i won this goodie bag but i must be 25 years old or above to redeem it. so i told them i am JUST 24 years old. they told me it's ok but i am still eligible for the drawing of the air ticket. this morning they called me again and asking me the same question "are you 25 years old"?

after all, 24 years old are not that old huh.

my birthday is just around the corner and i have a wish list this year.

a return ticket to Manchester.
a happier me. no more worries.
loves from everyone.
a return ticket to Manchester.
a phooi phooi phooi song from pamsong.
birthday song from jacob, weiyong, weejian, gap, andrew, randall & ted.
a day off where i can spend whole day talking online with all my love ones.
a better photography skill.
more and more and more loves from edwin.
no more hair dropping.
a new webcam. T_T
my family can come and visit me soon, i am darn lonely here.
a return ticket to Manchester.

you can make me a happy girl.

the puyallup fair

2008-09-24T10:32:00.000-07:00

the puyallup (pi.wa.lup) fair it's all about good food.

the onions and pickles on top of the german frankfurter were delicieux~

the turkey leg was yummy, but was not huge enough!

we definitely ate more than that but 2 pictures were more than enough alright.

we had fun on the rides too.

Before the roller coaster.

Pay attention to the couple in black and red. They must have been thinking wth these 2 Asian girls doing. lol

童话

2008-09-22T11:07:00.001-07:00

童话里的那个天使，都会展开翅膀守护着我们，让每个结局都幸福，快乐及完美吗？

blablabla

2008-09-15T21:42:00.000-07:00

i don't know where to start.

so i was sick yesterday. not the fever kinda sick. was just feeling nausea (which made me puke later), headache (my head was spinning, as if i was just got off a roller coaster ride). did i over work? no i don't think so. did i had too much fun with friends? no i don't think so as i no longer know what is the definition of social life. did i sleep too much? no i don't think so as i barely sleep for more than 6 hours a day, it's been a habit anyway.

i woke up at 6am and i felt like my head was going to burst or what. i could not call in sick at work as it's the company policy to call in sick 8 hours in advance (i know it's dumb, you don't have to tell me). i was scheduled to work double shifts yesterday, which is 16 hours. so i went in and told the shift lead no matter what she has to cancel off my name for the next shift (i was 8 hours ahead to call in sick for the second shift this time). she was reluctant to do it at the beginning as i understood she was afraid people will be bitching about me as i was able to work for the first shift why couldn't i just stay for the next shift. so in the end i promised her if i feel better i will continue working.

so during work yesterday, i found myself not the normal self. =_+ i barely talked to anyone. i started doing a lot of things to distract myself from how i was feeling physically. at one point, i volunteered to bring some kids out from the program, i thought fresh air will help me feel better. i was wrong. very very wrong. while i was walking, i felt so tired as if all my energy have evaporated in the air. a lot of times i felt like i was going to faint. =_+ jeez, what's wrong with me. i went back to work and decided to leave earlier to go home to rest.

once i reached home, i slept like a dead person on the bed. i put my phone on silent for the first time. i did not sleep with my laptop for the first time. talking about this, i should really stop sleeping with all these electronic devices that probably will cause me cancer one day.

so i rested and i felt much better this morning. so.. apart from that... edwin is leaving for manchester today. in a few hours to be exact. it's been a tough month for him, just imagine that you don't even know what's the status of your visa and your air ticket yet to be issued when you are supposed to fly like in a few hours. anyway it's all good now. when i got to know the good news, my heart was beating like crazy, i teared, and i was definitely very very very excited for him. boy i was extremely happy for him... ya, i know, it's still long distance, but at least US is closer to UK and at least i feel that it's another big step forward to our future. lol. ahhh, i am missing him so badly now. heart.

my birthday is coming soon. like in a month. i am turning 18. i mean 24. jeez. what have i achieved so far? none. nothing.

i feel like i have so much things to do but i don't know where to begin. i need to reply emails, messages in facebook, friendster, msn. i need to make a decision on my working visa. or should i say i need to make a decision on what i am gonna do to my future. if i am able to come out with a decision for this, i will have my answers for all next 10 decisions.

i think it's too much for me now. i am overwhelmed. truthfully, i can't handle it.

unlocking iphone 2.0.2

2008-09-09T20:41:00.000-07:00

loong kor, i successfully unlocked my iPhone to 2.0.2 (0.0.2 classy-er than yours. lol) with winpwn 2.5!!

this is so pretty!

i spent the whole afternoon and evening with my iPhone. i did a little research before i started on anything. from upgrading it from 1.1.4 to 2.0.2 took me such a long time (the backing up part and restoring part made me feel miserable).

then i gave david tan a call. omg he is such a rock star. he helped me freaking much ok. he helped me through step by step. where got people so nice one.

anyway, i did it! i successfully unlocked it to 2.0.2 version! i wasn't that dumb afterall!!

of Racism

2008-09-09T12:55:00.000-07:00

honestly, i do not mind people name calling. the kids at work always come up with the most interesting names ever. in fact a lot of names do not make sense.

for example, white ass nigger. so is that a nigger with white ass? =_=

they always call me chinese nigger. seriously, sometimes i want to tell them i am not mixed. =_+

but it really doesn't matter la. it's just a name with color.

BUT, recently this guy really pissed me off. i was at LAX airport. this guy at the check-in counter gave me a long lecture on Malaysian.

he was like "you Malaysian people. I do not understand Malaysian people. Seriously, you Malaysian people. I don't understand why Malaysian Airline did it this way". while he was saying all these he was shaking his head all the time! Hellllllooooo, what i wanted to know was can i leave the airport (i have 20 hours transit time) since i have already re-checked in my luggage (it checked through all the way to Seattle from Penang), but he kept mentioning "you Malaysian people" to me. it was just a simple question i did not know why he had to bring up malaysian.

then nvm. he did not know how to answer my question, he turned to his colleague. he said to her "i don't understand the way malaysian people do things, apparently the malaysian airline checked her luggage all the way through Seattle, can she leaves the airport for now.." again, he had to mention malaysian people in just a simple question. gosh.

to me, this is more racist than calling people a chinese nigger or a japanese slut.

MeMe

2008-09-09T12:12:00.000-07:00

sometimes you gotta do something to make people think that you have a boring life.

1. Are you in a complicated love situation?
depends on how you view it. i say no.

2. Do you hate more than 3 people?
hating people use up too much energy. so i don't hate. i just ignore.

3. The last thing you drank?
bak kut teh

4. Do you like beer?
wine or fancy drink. but i don't mind. me alcoholic anyway.

5. Is anyone in love with you?
duh.

6. Pepsi or sprite?
coke. lol. i try to avoid pops as much as i can.

7. Does look matter?
hmm. it doesnt matter as long as you smell good, and with clean clothes on.

8. What did you do last night?
worked.

9. Nick name ?
i used to like it when people call me ming ming, like years ago la. but now i prefer mingy. but i missed u calling me xiao xiao ming. oh whatever.

10. If you had a super power, what would it be?
i just need the doraemon's door that can bring me to any place in this world in a second.

11. Are you thinking about somebody right now?
hack ya. always.

12. Ever called somebody Boo?
no. i am not that ghetto.

13. Are you happy with your life right now?
yea. so many many challenges and obstacles and decisions. who don't love?

14. Do you like your hair?
yes. i do. love the color. but i do miss my long hair.

15. Does anyone like you?
they love me.

16. Are you afraid of the dark?
nope. not at all.

17. Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
yes. =(

18. Can you cook?
yes. Rachel Ray is my assistant.

19. What do you want more than anything right now?
i long for His presence.

20. Relationship or one night stand?
wth.

21. Whats the last thing you put in your mouth?
the soup of bak kut teh.

22. Have you ever kissed anyone with a name that started with S?
nah.

23. Last person you rode in a car with under the age of 22?
my friends are all pretty grown up.

24. Can you play Guitar?
i had a nice guitar from someone special. i tried to play and i failed big time.

25. Name someone that made you laugh today?
considering edwin was the only person i talked to until now (12:25pm), so i'd say it's him. or maybe jacob. =_+

26.How late did you stay up last night and why?
11:45pm. i passed out. so tired from work can.

27. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
yes. manchester. =_+

28. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
unfortunately yes. lol

29. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
airene lo. next door.

30.Do you believe ex(s) can be friends?
why not.

31.Do you prefer to call or text?
both.

32. How do you feel about Diet Dr Pepper?
I hate anything with diet. or fat free. they have tones of fake sugar i mean artificial sugars in them. if you want to kill yourself faster, consume more fat free yogurt and diet pops.

33.When was the last time you cried?
aiyo. like 1 hour ago. that stupid hong kong drama la. did you guys watch the Moonlight Resonance? damn good one!!

34.What was the last thing someone bought for you?
hmm. when i was in KK. goodness, no one bought anything for me lately. =_+

35. When is your birthday?
coming soon!!! October 17th!! I turn 18...~~

36. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
the bitch next door. lol

37. Was yesterday better than today?
i tell you tonight ok.

38. Can you live a day without TV/laptop?
i think i can't live without my phone. i dont really care about laptop cos i can go online with my phone. lol

39.What are you listening to?
i am actually listening to New kids on the block album. omg.

40. Are you mad about anything?
mad about... nothing oh.

41. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
yes. it's something worth fighting for.

42. Is anything bothering you right now?
yes. the laundry room is too far. =_+

43. Are you a bad influence?
lol. good influence you should say.

44. Would you share a drink with a stranger?
i try not.

45. If we were to look in your phone inbox, what would we find?
which inbox? nothing interesting i guess.

46. Hows your heart?
it's pinkish the last time i checked.

47. Your last thought?
what am i gonna do todayyyyyyyyyyy.

48. Are you your true self to everyone?
i hate fakers. what do you think???? it takes another 10 thousand lies to cover one lie, don't make your own life miserable.

49. Family or friends and why?
haiyo. truthfully. i cant live without both.

50. Drink to get drunk or drink just to socialize?
i want to try to get drunk, just to test the limit y' know!

51. Can people trust you?
LOL. can. can. can. your deep dark SERIOUS secrets are safe with me. but weejian don't trust me apparently. =(

52. If someone told you they loved you & you didn't love them back, would you lie?
huh? just tell honestly la. if they are matured enough they can handle it one.

53. Do your friends feelings matter more than your own?
yes. YES.

54. Do you spend too much time on your appearance?
haha. not on working day.

55. Things you want to accomplish this year?
so many things. =(

56. People you would do anything for?
you know who la. ish. so many of them.

57. Do you follow fashion trends?
what for.

58. Do you prefer your childhood, or your life now?
i prefer my future.

59. What do you do on stormy days/nights?
i don't really care. usually in front of the computer. =_+

60. What's something you never told someone, that you wish you had?
i am glad that i poured out my heart not long ago.

i tag no one. ello, do u think pam is free for meme?
maybe i can tag loongkor and delvin. I TAG Airene T too.

给：猪

2008-09-04T10:29:00.000-07:00

猪，

近来的你好吗？
芝加哥的天气转凉了吗？
西雅图的天气冷冷的，感觉很无情。
没有你-我的主人-在我身旁，什么事情都感觉缺少了那一份热情。。

想你。
想你问我在干嘛。
想你在三更半夜打电话问我在干嘛，即使在睡觉的我都会说。。嗯，我没在干什么。
想念你为我们准备的晚餐。
想念我们一起上课下课的日子。
想念我们一起读书的时间。
想念上课传字条。
还记得我们一起熬夜的日子吗？
还记得一起死背那些历史人物的那一个晚上吗？
想念一起三八的每一个时刻。
想念一起在美国游山玩水。
想念一起看日出。
想念车上播着周杰伦的[彩虹]。
想念有你的下雪天。

记得有一次，为了玩抛雪球，差点把我的手掌都弄断了。

想念你的微笑。

想念你那丰富的感情。
想念你那零乱的房间。
想念你的味道。
想念我们的球鞋。

想念偶尔叫你起床的早上。
想念看着你跳奇怪的舞步。
想念喝醉了的你。
想念你的歌声，把我们个个都笑翻了天。

对你的思念是满满的。

还记得它们吗？

我们有着最简单的友情，
却带着满满的回忆。
有着美美的回忆，
怎么写到了这边，
我感受到的，
只有那最无奈的遗憾？

我们的回忆，
零零碎碎的散在黑暗里。。

还记得这张卡片吗？
当我再次的看着这张图片，才发现你在说再见。

朋友，我想念你。
我们何时再见？

猪，
开心点。好吗？

我没办法带给你快乐，
但希望你都能拥有。

祝你，
幸福。

moved.

2008-09-03T14:51:00.000-07:00

ahhhhh. i am back. it had been hella week. was busy moving and with works, and i admit i slacked a bit la.

i got punched the other day. in the eye.

spot the difference. sorry for the pimples. it was pretty painful in the first 2 days, it's good in a way as i couldn't rub my eyes.

uncle and aunty came all the way from portland to help us to move. so paiseh. peh keong and kelly were being so helpful too!!! i could not imagine myself and airene with the U-haul (if we rented one la). at night, we went to wasabi bistro for my favorite green tea tiramisu!

so i have moved to a new place.

welcome to my new house! yes, it's a house. a huge one.

ta-daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... do you like it?

uncle, aunty and kelly were posing. smile. they love my house.

so now are you ready for my room?

xiaxue eat this! my room is more pinkish than yours!

i love the cupboard. its pink leather!

the bathroom. the waters from the ceiling.

aireney's room. sassy girl. kononnya.

uncle and aunty in the 'guest' room. lol

helped kelly to take this picture. i love it.

we were planning to have bbq party or something like that.

aunty was like..ahh..i dont think these chairs are good idea...not water proof...seattle rains a lot. lol.. then kelly was like 'yea lo yea lo...'

that's the end of the tour.

fine. i lied. =(
if only we moved in there. i think i can only afford to pay the electricity bill every month.
oh well. i am contended with what i have now.
it was actually peh keong and kelly..brought us to see the show roooooom..they are getting a house there. ahhh. how nice.

so, this is the apartment that i am actually moved into. =_+ it's not as new as the last one, BUT.... no more bitchy landlord's daughter. pardon my word. she is a biatch. she is. she is. she is. she is. she is. she is. i say...SHE IS.

at least, no one is watching our private life closely now. no one will peek at us out from their window. no one will walk as if they have heavy feet on top of us. no one will look at us like a sinner or whatsoever. no one will stop us from having friends coming over. no one will talk to our guests in a rude way. no one will accuse me for taking off the firealarm beepers, oh gosh when i am not even tall enough to reach that cover.

eventhough the parents were being nice, too bad la, cos people will always refer back to the parents when your daughter behaves like sh*t. oh well, no point bitching bout some not-so-important people.

enough.

wait. this is my old apartment if you have already forgotten how does it look like. the only thing i miss is the big mirror on my closet. that's it!

heeeeeeee. welcome to our new apartment!

it will look very sad compared to the show room pictures above though.

the small dining room. we got the small 'asian' table from value village the other day for $2.50. lol

the living room. the couch was $19.90 from value village too, we bought it few months ago.

the other side of the living room. someone needs to buy me a WiiiIIIIIiiiIIiiiIIIii...

the hallway to airene and my room.

now you can see the mess in my room.

i wonder how am i gonna move all these things back to m'sia one day......

after a morning of cleaning...

ta-daaa.. i felt so accomplished ar! my workstation... the time out corner/quiet space/reading corner... and my messy cupboard.

my bed. air bed. now you know what is the current book i am reading. and also my lonely laundry basket at the corner.

closet 1.

closet 2.

shoes. omg.

shoes. omg. omg.

shoes. omg. omg. omg.

shoes. omg. omg. omg. omg.

the bathroom.

the kitchen.

to welcome ourselves in the new apartment, we cooked 'pork feet vinegar' 猪脚醋. not really la. we just bought regular pork la. it's our own house warming party. wth. =_+

that's all.

so when are you coming to visit?

i m still alive

2008-09-03T00:17:00.000-07:00

if you were wondering.

gosh. i am so frustrated over the snapfish site. i just wanted to print some free photos. please let me. grrrr.

another post on LDR

2008-08-26T22:11:00.000-07:00

wedding is like one of a major life events right? so you know when a bride is getting married, she usually will have this positive form of stress (or we call it eustress) when the bride is feeling all excited about her wedding. on the other hand, the bride will also have the negative form of stress (or we call it distress) when the bride is stressing out on whether she is handing the next part of her life to the right person.

u know what, not long ago i had the exact same feeling as the bride. but not on a wedding, but on a long distance relationship (ldr).

i don't know about other ldr couple. but to me, it is weird (not weird weird but you know what i mean) when you have to be really close and lovey dovey to your bf when you haven't seen him for awhile. i haven't seen edwin for 295 days, which is 7080 hours, and which is 424800 seconds. if you asked me, i 'd tell you that's a long time. =_= so recently we met up when i was back to m'sia. like a few days before i went to kk to see him, i actually freaked out.

the upcoming meeting up with him produced good form of stress as in with all the excitement and anticipation, i mean after like so so so long, and finally you know!! BUT, at the same time, i was all stressed out (i am pretty sure this is distress!!) because of the nervousness and anxiety i have for the meeting. i felt so stress partly was because i wasn't sure how's everything gonna turn out to be. you know you can be like so loving and all on the phone or msn but when you actually meet up you don't know how you should act.

i am not sure whether you understand what i am trying to tell but one day when you are getting married you will understand how i feel. although i am not quite close to anywhere of getting married yet, i am telling you it's the same thing when you are in a long distance relationship (the meeting up part la!).

a map to conquer kota kinabalu

2008-08-26T18:45:00.001-07:00

during my vaca back to m'sia, i paid a visit to kk. this is my 2nd time visiting kk. the first time was 2 years back during hari raya 2006. there were not much changes in term of the roads. i can be a pretty dumb gf, but one thing i am pretty good at is remembering directions. i have a pretty good visual memory, hehe. from edwin's house i can drive myself to a lot of places: kk downtown, tanjung aru, airport, lido, lintas, likas, kelompong, bukit padang, damai, penampang, beverly hills, one borneo mall, city mall, and probably find my way to mount kinabalu. even i know how to get to those places, it still bothers me a lot as i do not know whether they are actually located at north, south, east or west. edwin was kind enough to draw me a map. i love the way he drew it. i love guy who is good in direction too. hee.

<3

2008-08-26T02:42:00.001-07:00

a night of hard work. hope you love it. heee.

the life so far

2008-08-25T20:59:00.004-07:00

what i have done so far ever since the day i got back to this evergreen state. seattle is also named as the evergreen state where they explained it in the way that you can always see greens in seattle in every season. seattle is also famous for the washington apple. i remembered mom always buy fuji apple or washington apple. the first starbucks coffee is in seattle too. it's 2 and a half hour drive from seattle to vancouver. ah, why did i talk so much about seattle?

oh ya. i was having diarrhea on 4 consecutive days when i got back to the u of A. I noticed myself was having searious water retention problem when i was back to m'sia. my whole body was bloated, you know like the puffer fish. i felt that my clothes and shoes were smaller in size. i felt terrible. i felt like a balloon even i did not eat much. so the first day when i touched down in LA, i started to have this watery bowel movements. i felt that i have lost waters and salts from my body in that 4 days, and now i feel 'normal' again.

i had minor jetlag as compared to the trip back to m'sia. i worked on the first day i got back here. i woke up like 3 in the morning and could not go back to sleep. so i was basically very very very blur when i was at work. the first day of work was good. i mean, having all the kids coming to me and telling me how much they have missed me. but at the same time, i felt i have lost patient in them. i was blur at chaotic situation, i asked my colleague "perhaps, we should call clear-the-floor?" and she nodded, and i was like "oh.. it's CLEAR THE FLOOR!". aw, i was slow by 10 seconds in everything i did on work that day. i need time to get used to everything again.

i am moving to a new place. i do not have much to say about this, but ya, i am moving to somewhere like 3 blocks away from here. packing and more packing.

i miss home, i miss edwin, i miss friends. the question that i hate to hear the most now is "so what's your plan on your future".

once again, i am standing on a crossroad, praying that there will be a light to lead me the way.

a thank you note

2008-08-25T20:03:00.003-07:00

p/s: this post is on my vacation back to m'sia

there are so many of you that i wanna say thanks to.

thank you for picking me up from the airport most of the times. thank you for wiping away my tears and telling me everything gonna be alright. thank you for the tight hug that i felt that i am so much loved. thank you for letting me know that you are always just one call away. thank you for helping me to see the best in each situation. thank you for being there for me when i needed someone the most. thank you for the text messages that filled with encouragements and loves. thank you for telling me do not give up. thank you for telling me the truth. thank you for waiting for me for the entire night where you could have done something better. thank you for giving me the courage to speak. thank you for speaking up for me. thank you for being there. thank you for listening. thank you for your words that makes me always feel with loadsa hopes and possibilities. thank you for being just so caring. thank you for your prayer. thank you for picking me up when i fall. thank you for helping me to make a phone call when i did not have enough malaysian ringgit at the petrol station. thank you for taking off from works just for the gathering. thank you for driving all the way back to Penang for the meet up. thank you for the many karaoke sessions. thank you for the chit-chats that make me feel we are all so grown up. thank you for a place to stay. thank you for trying every possible way to make me a happy girl. thank you for a lovely family. thank you for being just so understanding. thank you for being yourself.

i could not thank you guys enough.

thank you for letting yourself be my hiding place.

when in the time of need, let me be your place to hide.

this song is for you guys.

- place to hide, by lucie silvas -

If you're lonely anytime
You can talk to me
When you have trouble on your mind
I will always be
Here to shield you from it all
The best way that I can
Anything you want from me

Call me day
Call me night
Call me anytime you need someone to hold you
The tears in your eyes
Will be gone, they will dry
And if you still find that you can't face the world outside
Let me be your place to hide

I could always lie to you
If that's what you need
Tell you life is never cruel
And people never leave
But love is not always kind
And hearts break all the time
And even if I'm far from you

Call me day
Call me night
Call me anytime you need someone to hold you
The tears in your eyes
Will be gone, they will dry
And if you still find that you can't face the world outside
Let me be your place to hide

Little corner of the world is what I give to you
Somewhere you can find some peace and understanding
Life can be so sweet

Call me day
Call me night
Call me anytime you need someone to hold you
The tears in your eyes
Will be gone, they will dry
And if you still find that you can't face the world outside
Let me be your place to hide

love y'all.

the weddding

2008-08-24T21:26:00.003-07:00

How sweet.

i like everything on a wedding. the vows reading part (their own vows, i didnt meant the other one) always earn my tears. the heartfelt thoughts that your bff says about you. the wedding songs. the dance. the way the couple look into each other eyes. the stress-less look of the bride, knowing the husband will be there and everything gonna be alright.

the best thing at the yesterday wedding was seeing Lisa running around with her gown and wearing a face filled with happiness. i am truly happy for her.

have you ever thought of how's your wedding gonna be like? the list of love songs. the invitation list. the venue. the gown. the bridesmaid. and the most important thing of all, the man that you are going to say 'i do' to.

when will be my turn?

there was one very cute guy at the wedding yesterday. lol

i believe

2008-08-23T12:49:00.000-07:00

love always prevails.

delighted

2008-08-22T23:20:00.003-07:00

He always says the words that light up my day.

He always gives me the charming smiles that kill me.

He always acts in different ways that make my heart goes..awww....

Today he came to me...

He called me "Mingy"..

He said..."Mingy, don't ever go back to Malaysia again Ok?"..

He said..."Never ever, ok?"

He said..."I missed you when you were gone..."

He then hugged me.

And he is just a kid.

Los Angeles - the city of Angels

2008-08-19T22:57:00.011-07:00

So I did not waited stupidly in LAX for my connecting flight to Seattle... I went out from the airport and rented a room in a motel and joined a night city tour in LA. (FYI it was a 20 hours gap before my next flight.)

LA from above.

This is the best shot I can get for the LA downtown. =_+ Me sucky. The tour guide was driving so fast ok!! I even missed the Hollywood board sign!!!!!!!

I am going to Holllllllywood!

This is a cute name for a road.

Universal Studiooooooo~

I did not go into the theme park as I was on the tour with this travel agency. But it was more than enough. =)

The Universal City.. the City Walk.

King Kong is the man!

This is guy is so good in spraying art!

City Loft where the clubs and pubs at.

Dodgers fans anyone?

The popcorns smell good!

This is for me. lol

And this is for you!

Me with the doughnuts magnets. I miss Krispy Kreme!

The socks market. =_+

My favorites of all.

Some performance la. lousy audience.

In a Candy shop - It'Sugar. We're ballsy. lol

Marilyn Monroe made from JellyBeans.

The chocolate store.

looks yummy!

BUT.. Jalapeno dipped in Chocolate????

Chocolate in chunks!

They are all mine!

I took this with iPhone!! =p

So that's all about the universal studio. The next stop was Hollywood downtown. And it was when my camera chose to die on me! I did not charge my camera since I left for M'sia as all my friends have camera. =_+ Sigh..and iPhone doesn't work at night one! no flash!!

I was all happy even when people tried to kill me. Beware of all the dressed up people in Hollywood (those in costume). If you take picture with them you are expected to pay them tips!!

The Mann's Chinese Theatre.. it's the plave where the footprints and handprints of your favorite movie legends.

eat that American. it's Chinese territory! lol

The walk of fame...Godzilla! Michael jackson one was so dirty.

hand and footprints!

The Kodak Theatre... the home of the Oscars!

The stairs to the theatre.

Giordano store in the Kodak Theatre. But they do sell brands like Ed Hardy too!

I love the Departed!

The ROosevelt Hotel. The first Academy Award was held there... The HBO Entourage was filmed there too, and also a lot more movies like Charlie's Angels...

The next stop was Sunset strip. We walked a long the sunset boulevard. They call it the playground of the stars where you can see the chic and trendy shops and restaurants. No picture. =_+

Then we went to Beverly Hills..the home of the rich and famous. Ahh. they were all pretty. Coulnd't really have a clear look at it was dark at night. Then we passed by Rodeo Drive.

Rodeo Drive where the stars shop in many exclusives boutiques like Giorgio Armani, Gucci, Chanel, LV, Jimmy Choo and more. In fact, Vivian Ward from the PrettyWoman movie shopped at here too!

A few of the shops. It's very pretty and clean!!

Regent Beverly Wilshire.. where Julia Roberts get to enjoy the high-life. =p

After that the tour guide brought us to Olvera Street, the place where Los Angeles was born in 1781. It's actually a very small downtown of old LA. You can google for the picture. =p

The last stop was the LA downtown. We get to see the Music center where the Broadway meets LA...then the Walt Disney Cocert Hall. It is huge and pretty!!!

However... I do not have good impression on LA. I don't know. I think it's too big and too many cars. It's different from New York where everything is located near to each other, while in LA everything is scattered around.

Anyway.. I made a new friend during this short trip!

She is Eli from Norway! She came up to me and asked whether I wanted to walk together with her. =p Eli was having a long wait in the airport for her connecting flight to Brazil, that's why she joined the tour too! =p What can I say, she is a really nice person!

What I left behind...

2008-08-19T21:43:00.012-07:00

was a lot a lot a lot of LOVES.

Miss him ar.

Deli Randall. He never failed to make me laugh.

I like this picture, because Randall was squeezed in between.

Look at Pam!

Jansson, the guy who never grown up physically!

Edwin's friend - Ken's son - Darren? He is so cute I want to have my own!

I have to develop this picture!

Me and the little puteri payung, Edwin's sister, Daphne.

Deli, Me, Ed

the girl, neilson, deli, me

eee..so sweet..with daphne chii chiii

heart melted.

so many talented friends.

they are the best.

little gap. When he picked me up in KL, he was wearing the pink polo shirt that I gave him 3 years ago.. jeez.. love him!!

He is so cute that he deserves a space here. =p

love the charming smile. love the dimple.

so sweet.

so loved.

so hilarious.

kawaii. i can't act. =_+

sisters.

my beloved mei mei.

Lik..wth are u doingggg.

How I wished we have more us-time.

ted, suzan my sister, me, lik

at the last bbq gathering.

hmmm.

love u guys!!

my best buddies.

weejian i want more our pictures!!

i love this pic!

my cousin, she is so busy all the time. =_+

with mc dreamy, weiyong

with xiaoxiao jian!

missing you two!

another one! cheez!

With SueAnn, during our early birthday celebration.

My big family. tak boleh tahan my bro n sis in law they are always so loving one!

the girls.

me & JJ! Come see me in Seattle k..................... =p

Too many pictures already. =_+ But still I don't know why I didnt take any photo with Jacob, Anthony, Delvin, Shirley, and a lot a lot more people. =_+ I missed the chance!!

How spoiled can a girl be...

2008-08-19T11:04:00.002-07:00

Love the hair color. Me in the sea of the stuffies.

Did not bring the big tortoise back to Penang, but I have this little one with me.

Ta-daaaa. the collection.

Yes, I am very spoiled and loved by a lot of people!! =p I have more in the store room, did not get them out as I did not want mom to go crazy. =_+ Anyway, I have a few more in Seattle and Portland. LoL. My stuffs are everywhere. =_+

More lovey-dovey pictures in next post!

...

2008-08-14T17:01:00.002-07:00

When the Lacoste meets Mary Jane.

3 more days till I leave for states. ;(

it's all good

2008-07-30T16:44:00.005-07:00

Hello People. I am back in penang. Yay to myself, I survived the long journey! Travelling alone on the plane for so long is so sick. Let pictures replace the words.

The can-help-me-sleep-better-bear is travelling with me this time!

So from Seattle to Japan took about 11 hours. A lot of Japanese on the plane with me but unfortunately I have this grumpy old japanese man sitting beside me. The lucky thing is there were 4 seats on our row but no one was sitting beside us, so we eventually moved away from each other and we had 2 seats for ourselves.

I found this video pretty amusing. The played it on the screen when the plane took offfffff...

Apparently it taught you how to relax yourself on such a long flight. I found it even more funny when everyone on the plane started to move themselves like what the ladies in the video did.

Neh, that uncle in specs he was laughing and all when he was doing the moves. Then, this japanese guy with his socks, eew. Cannot sit properly one is it? =p

My dinner. My first meal. Some chicken breast la.

They gave ice cream sandwich for snack. Cheapo. This is damn cheap ok. Anyway, this is the last picture of the foooods they provided. I forgot to take others. I lied. I slept through most of the meals. =_+ I was too tired ok. I think they served 4 times.

Then from Japan to Singapore took about 7 hours. I slept again. I tried to sleep according to Malaysian time but I failed miserably.

I read this book most of the time when I was awake on the plane. After reading it, I missed school so much as it talked so so so much about psychology. I read another book named 'Plato and a Platypus Walked into a bar' too. It is a damn good book wei, I don't have the picture of it because the book is not with me now. The book basically helps you to understand philosophy through jokes, you must have some basic philosophy knowledge in order to understand the jokes though. Highly recommend this book, show you guys the picture next time or just google it la.

If you were wondering, I did bring your pimple-less picture along. =p

So I reached Penang around 2pm yesterday. OMG!! Like finally ok. 12 hours in Changi Airport was not fun at all. I paid them to get a small bed to sleep, yes sleep again. I also paid them to take a shower. Everything in Singapore Airport is expensive. The duty free is not duty free at all. If you wanna shop, shop on the plane or in Narita Airport duty free.

Ok enough about Singapore. So I reached Penang then, yay yay yay I makan at Kayu Nasi Kandarrrrrr, but they don't have garlic naaaaaaan in the noon. =_+ I ate kambing but still very very very nice. Met up with Ted then WeiYong then WeeJian then Andrew. OMG!!!! It's the best day of 2008 so far. LOL. So dad wanted mom to prepare steamboat for me. Uncles aunties all came and I made weejian weiyong and ted came as well so that I have excuse to run away from home for awhile to go to andrew house for another food gathering.

Anyway, I didn't take any pictures in Penang yet!!! I was too busy chatting with friends and forgot about the camera. I am still having jet lag. omggggggggg. I woke up at 7 am yesterday. I woke up at 5am today. This is driving me crazy.

Oh yah. I went to QueensBay Mall today. I saw the price in Forever 21. It's ridiculous!!! It's such a ripppppped off ok!!! I am not American wannabe but this is too much!! A simple blouse here costs RM99 or more when it's only costs like 15 dollars. In Us, Forever 21 price ranges from 5 usd to 32.90 usd. A most pretty and expensive dress will cost you 40usd at most. I saw the skinny jeans in the store (exactly the same one, same colors, same quality), it's ticketed at RM142 when it only costs 9.90usd. =_=

And don't make start on brands like Aldo, Guess, Gap, and so on. I am just wondering they kena tax so much by the government is ittttttttttt. But wait, it's not only those brands, I think brands like Seed, Padini, Vincci, they are all over priced!!

But oh well, it's just clothes and shoes la. I still love penang's foooood. It's not that expensive, it's something i can afford!! lol. I heart penang big time. I love my friends here, i love this place, i love my homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

So I have high chances not going back to the State anymore. If this is the case, Airene you can have my tennis racket, tennis balls, some of my shoes if you can fit in them, and my external hdd.

Bye!

Changi Airport revisited

2008-07-28T16:18:00.002-07:00

Haiya. I am at Changi Airport right now. I was here since early morning 00:20am. My flight to Penang is at later 11:05am. =_+

I have a lot of things to say and pictures to show you people. But I am obviously very tired and lazy right now, so wait till I am at home la.

Ta~

very full liao

2008-07-26T21:41:00.002-07:00

I am sorry if I couldn't help anyone of you to get what you guys want from here.

Because... My luggage is very full liao... =( I have to pay for overweight luggage for sure.

One big One small.

Really very full liao.

quick update

2008-07-23T17:44:00.002-07:00

House internet is down!! Somebody please tell me what happen.

Now what I have is my poor iPhone. I have to check email, go on MSN, check my bank accounts, blogs hopping, updating blog, sudoku, nintendo games, check calender, calculator,...everything la..everything have to depend on the phone right now. =(

I finally feel that I am paying AT&T to do something.

Anyway, just to remind Willett. I am not getting you in trouble. It's the promises that you have made. Friends do not break promises, remember that???????????? AND, Elaine needs friends in Perth ok!!! Pam and me are the best choice! =p

That's all for now. The next time I update should be the time when I am in Changi Airport!!!

See ya'll in Penang, KL, KK!!!!

Ta~

p/s: bad news, weejian will be back to US when I am back to Penang. How pathetic is that?? =(

6 more days to go

2008-07-21T01:20:00.003-07:00

I can't wait to see my 阳光男孩。

Because my day does not shine anymore. He tries hard to shine upon me, but I put up the blinds to block the sun. Jeez. What am I thinking.

Knowing that I am heading home in 6 days but I don't seemed to be happy.

There are so many things happened lately that I don't even know how I got myself into the shits. I feel as though there's a big wave keep on pressing and pushing on me, and I am drowning, suffocating and drenching in the water, waiting for a slim chance to get a breath of fresh air, hoping to be pushed to the shore. My guess is when I see the shore will be the time I see the person who picks me up at the airport.

I have been losing contacts with a few friends of mine. I did not pick up calls, I did not reply messages, or I tried hard to ignore or avoid them. Nope, they have done nothing wrong. It's just me. I hate to answer them how's things have been going, how's certain people have been doing. I found myself being uncomfortable answering those questions as I can no longer be my true self in front of them. I hate to fake the things that I am telling them, I hate the fact that I know what's been happening but I can't share with them, I hate to be a faker/impostor or whatever you want to call it as. When I can't share my true feelings/facts/things have been going on, I chose not to tell or not to say anything at all. In this way, I do not have to feel bad for myself, I do not have to be a faker as I say nothing at all.

Yes. I say nothing at all.

But, me, being a human after all, has to find a way for myself to unleash the guard dogs that have been staying in the hutch for a while. (guard dogs are big in size while the hutch is small in size; the stressors are enormous and strong while my heart is tiny and fragile.)

And I guess, this is the way.

the aussie people

2008-07-20T21:32:00.004-07:00

Something to cheer up my day!
Saw this in the mail box and I was like...wahhhhhhh...something from down under!!

WaaaaRrrraaaooo... A mail from Willett and Elaine!!

Well, Elaine my daughter during college time got married last year and I couldn't attend. ;( I was having final exam that time (final exam during final semester!!). Willett felt so bad because he chose a wrong date and I couldn't be there, to make it up for this he PROMISED me to buy me and pam air ticket to fly to Perth to see them, some time next year. LOL. LOL. LOL. Anyway, they sent me the wedding pictures in a cd (very cheapo ar, didnt even develope decent picture for me!!!). =p

I likey likey this picture! Happy Family!! I miss Geron...I taught him a lot of good words where he can greet all the aunties and uncles whenever he sees them!

My budddddddies!! WeiYong, Pam, Gap!!, the couple, JC. I wasn't in the picture again.

Elaine called me mommy in the card. I missssssssed being called mommy!! Those time in Inti was sweeeeeet, when we started to pak-thor at almost the same time! =p

My best buddies! Missing you girls!

Last picture is outta topic liao.

Hey babe! The orangey cellphone "hanger/string". I still have my purple one with me!! =p

約書亞樂團 Joshua Band

2008-07-18T10:40:00.003-07:00

I have noticed that a lot of contestants in Taiwan singing contests have started to choose songs from Joshua Band lately. I first got to know 約書亞樂團 Joshua Band from Randall and all, you know la the Sabah gang. He sent me all their albums and I was lucky enough when I was in KK 2 years ago was able to attend Joshua Band's concert. It was a tres bien experience! =p

This song is one of my favorites, and have accompanied me through the toughest time.

陳璽恩--出口

To me, TO ME la, 陳璽恩-Sien from Joshua Band is just like Darlene Zschech from Hillsongs. I love her voice!!

Here is another favorite of mua.

陳璽恩--Thank You For Your Love

A perfect song for mummy isn't it?

(:

fishmonger selfish in the market

2008-07-17T11:30:00.002-07:00

human are selfish in general.

sigh.

******

I am not happy, when I finally have time to do all the Taggies/meme, I accidentally deleted everything AFTER I typed them, and stupid blogger had to auto-save when my screen was blank!!

In 10 more days I am leaving (how I wish I can say something like..leaving for good)... I am excited yet... i don't know..I have mixed feelings inside.

This morning, I made decision on fasting for 10 days.

You are always there for me, aren't You?

I love You.

Bye.

do you need a self potrait?

2008-07-15T00:28:00.004-07:00

Ok, so I usually don't do this but well, he is my friend, so....

Ok, so DelvinC, he is a freelancer who draws everything (self-portrait usually), and a photographer.

Ok, the last sentence sounds dull and lame.

Well, he is a friend that can draw really well and takes good picture.

Below are some of his arts.

Portrait is always a good birthday gift or for yourself or for whoever who you want to give during whatever occasions la. Now you guys know that I am so not an advertising student. =_+

Anyway, this is Delvin.

Whoever that is interested in getting yourself a drawing or need a photographer for any occasion, please feel free to contact him at his blog "I Like Green", or Facebook him...Ok?

His photography can be viewed at Flickr. HERE.

He is a very kind gentleman, he won't eat you or suck your blood. =p

Loving the blue blue sky

2008-07-14T17:54:00.004-07:00

The pictures were taken at Marina, DesMoines at Seattle. I am so in love with the blue blue sky.

Actually iPhone can takes really good picture even it's only 2.0mp. Love my job partly is because when kids go outing (this is the fishing outing), I get to explore more places in Seattle and also get to take pictures at the same time. =p

the devils are back from the heavenly camp

2008-07-12T10:06:00.004-07:00

the kids are back from summer camp. For the past one week, all the staffs had hella fun cleaning up the house, and had really good staff bonding time. but now the little angels are back, no more sandals or slippers allowed during work, sigh.

Apparently they went to this Christian Summer Camp. All the kids came back from the camp claiming themselves got to know God a little bit more better, and at least know a scripture or two.

So one of the kids said.."Ming Ming MInnnngyyyyy... you know what..everyone is now a Christian after the camp..but I am different from them, because before the camp I am already a Christian, I read Bible!!!..."

sweet.

So I talked to this kid, who is usually very rude to me, who likes to call me retard or stupid. He said..."Ming, you know what, I learned something form the camp, I can remember a verse...Listen.."

I was paying full attention to him. He was like.. "I can do all things...hmmm..hmmm.."

Then I was like "through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13". Then he was like "How did you know that? You are a Chinese but how do you know that??"

I gave him a smile.

Then he said.."whenever I feel I need strengths, I will always remember this verse."

I was like, thinking in my heart, OMG, please, do not remember this verse when you are escalated, because I can so imagine you assaulting staffs with your mighty strengths. =_+

OK. That's all about the kids.

Antoni and I brought our primary kids to the lake, and Antoni showed us how to skip a rock. He is awesome!!

A better one. See how far it skipped!!

Our Song(s)

2008-07-11T11:55:00.005-07:00

These are our songs.

***1***

Ever since you sang this song to me at the beach, it stuck in my heart and mind, forever.

Terimalah lagu ku jadi teman hidup mu
Untuk selamanya
Kau tahu bertapa ku sayang padamu
Hanya bidadari sebagai ganti
Hanya takdir
Menentukan ia
Oh belaian jiwa

No matter where we are, how far we are apart, we will always have the special place in each other heart.

***2***

I am trying to choose between a few songs, Yellow by Cold Play, If you're gone by MatchBox20, in the end I chose Menghitung Hari by Kris Dayanti. Remember those days that we stayed up late chatting in ICQ, or woke up early in the morning to study for SPM, turned on the radio before getting ready to go to school, and this song will always be playing on air on Hitz Fm.

Menghitung hari
Detik demi detik
Masa ku nanti apa kan ada
Jalan cerita kisah yang panjang
Menghitung hari...

I am menghitung hari to the day I will be finally seeing you again. I can't wait for the day to come, like you said, we have a lot of catch up to do!

***3***

Each time I listen to JackJohnson, I think of you. I remember it was one of the Summer when you got back from the States and every time we went out, you played JackJohnson Cd in your car. No doubt about it, I love JackJohnson, and it definitely surprised me that we enjoy listening to the same genre of songs. Ahh, that's not important. But I chose Where We Gonna Go from Here by Mat Kearney for our song.

All of your ways and all your thunder
Got me in a haze running for cover
Where we gonna go from here
Where we gonna go from here

Car lights in the driveway
I wonder who's going coming my way
Tomorrow we're turning down the highway
With another bright stage on a weekday
Green grass and a radio
Watching it fly past and away we go
Seven hundred places seven hundred faces more

We were so into this song, and it was on our play list playing over and over again. During that time, we were so uncertain about our future. You couldn't make up your mind on your decision on coming back to the states while I was involving in a relationship that I did not know where I wanted to head to. Our lives were a little bit, hmm, miserable. I miss you friend, I will be there soon!

***4***

When I thought of including you in this post, I was wondering will you ever realized this part is for you. Aiya, nvm la. As long as I know, that's good enough. I don't know whether we are close enough for me even to say this, but I have to tell you, when I need someone to talk to, you never failed to give me the positive boost. Until there was one period, you were missing in action, I did not know where were you, you were totally disappeared.

When I listen to Fall for You by Secondhand Serenade I think of you.

I swear it's true
Because a guy like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

I changed the lyrics a little bit. Yes, it's true. A guy like you is impossible to find. One day, a girl will fall for you, over and over again. I don't understand I have a lot of boy's friends who have good qualitieSSS like you but never have enough confidence in themselves. =_+ Boy, secondhand serenade is so good looking. I am looking forward to see you this trip back to M'sia. Hoping that you will serenade me with your voice. LOL.

***5***

My neighbor!! Our songs.... probably a lot from boys group...boy that was so long ago, since I was in Form2 or 3?? Omg...Nvm.. I chose Kenangan Terindah by Samson. The song you wanted me to sing for you. Haaa....

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku

You never failed to call me at the right time, when I needed someone the most, when I thought it's the end of the world, you never failed to make me smile. I love you big time my neighbor! I will sing you this song, when you get married one day. lol. Anyway, you will 'jadi kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku'. Ok, this is your birthday gift. lol.

***6***

We have so many "our songs" I didn;t even know which one to choose!! I will go with You'll think of Me by Keith Urban first.

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me

We were heartbroken because of our boys. We wished that they will take away all the memories (bad ones) and think of us at the same time. But we failed big time (sometimes la), we thought of them badly instead.

Another song... Home by Michael Buble.

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

I miss you babe. I miss the midnight curry beehoon. I miss the midnight roti telur & maggiee goreng. I miss friendster-ing together. I miss doodle-ing and post them on your door. I miss million things about you, and us. I will be home soon, love you ela-21.

***7***

I was sad that we don't have a song until I listen to this song, OurSong by Taylor Swift. It reminded me that we actually share million songs, just that we don't have one significant song. Who to blame when we only see each other for 2 days when we have been together for 87739273 days now.

Our song is the slamming screen door,
Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
Cause it's late and your mama don't know
Our song is the way you laugh
The first date "man, I didn't kiss her, and I should have"
And when I got home ... before I said amen
Asking God if he could play it again

This song totally says what I want to say. Remember those nights sneaking out late and Pam got mad bout it. LOL. Remember those nights spending together in KK. Remember...hmm..that's too much to write it here. One thing I know for sure that, this trip back to M'sia, we will have our song. <3

The Burien Style Party

2008-07-10T21:54:00.010-07:00

Since the day we moved into this house, Airene and I never brought more than 2 friends home (the Bemidji gang is different, they came for holiday). On last Tuesday, we decided to have an open house, invited friends and colleagues to our place for a small hang-out/party/gathering or whatever you want to call it.

Airene did a really good job inviting people to our place by texting them. lol. We had a really great crowd, and we had good foooooooood and drinksssssss too!

I call this devil-egg-boat! Cute huh!

Strawberry dipped in chocolate.

My little raspberry cupcake with lavender color icing!

This is Norik-ian style fried chicken wings. From Noriko. lol

Banana dipped in chocolate.

Sangriaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

A glass of Sangria.

Vietnamese Spring rolls

Kebab!

Sushi...

Some of the people that showed up!

Noriko and I with the peace-yo-sign. Love this girl. She helped us so much, in every way, or whatever way she can. =p

We had every guests took picture with the paper plate. This is Lindsay! She was smiling behind the plate!

Me. Aaron. Airene. Love him!!

Antoni. He is the nicest guy, ever.

Amy..omg, i love this woman.

Lindsay tried to finish up the Sangria. She cracks me up.

Austin is down. What is a party without a restraint?

Just chillin.

Hookah Hoookah and more Hoooookah!

When things...get messy. Lol. They were totally having fun!

I LOVE THIS PICTURE. LOVE THE WAY HOW AMY LOOKS. I MADE HER PUT UP THE HAIR LIKE THAT. I AM SUCH AN evil.

Last but not least, a "restraint" video for you guys. A party without a restraint is not a party (it only applies to people who are TCI trained). =p

Now you know, a restraint can ends up really ugly.

Independence Day

2008-07-06T15:54:00.004-07:00

This is my second year celebrating 4th of July in US. This year I spent it at work with the kids!

Went to the parade at downtown Burien (Where I live). It's fun for kids, not for me though. I almost teared when I saw Lion Dance!

Before FireWorks at the Lake Burien. The Lake Burien is just by the place I work. And the FirewWorks were based on our dock. I love the view!

A few pictures of fireworks with iPhone.

A short clip of fireworks with iPhone. Not too bad huh?

Went to Mark Restaurant with Airene after work. Two lonely girls. We had Calamari, Chicken Wings, and Lavender Orchid Cocktail.

在你我之间有时说变就变
就像烟火下一秒消失不见
想起你的微笑这画面短暂纪念
放在心里面你说过的永远
留在昨天就当它是我最美的纪念

在烟火释放光芒的夜里，竟然没有恋人相伴，
让我不由自主的说：爱伦，你爱我吗？

哈哈哈！

So..let's talk about iPhone today

2008-07-03T23:30:00.004-07:00

So, so, so, so, so, so, so, people has been asking me to help them to buy iPhone and bring it back to M'sia for them. I couldn't do anything but to say NO. Before you guys think that I am being selfish/proud/arrogant/cocky or whatever you want to call me, please listen to my reasons first.

So, I went to Apple Store the other day to check out the new iPhone 3G. At the starting price of $199, who will say NO to the new apple 3G iPhone? So I wanted to buy one for my brother (it's more like I get the new one and I will give him my old iPhone. I am a very kind sister.)

So, I talked to one of the sales person. I told her how much I ADORE the new iPhone, and I don't like my old iPhone anymore, because it is not in black or white color like the new 3G iPhone. I told her I am on AT&T line contract right now and I have one more year of contract to go. So I asked her if I wanted to buy a new 3G iPhone do I have to sign any new contract. Without thinking for another second,the girl replied me "NO". She started to explain "yi li ya lada lailialalelelele yi ya la".

Such a bummer.

Steve Jobs thought he was very smart but I think he is damn stupid and if he is not interested in selling people his iPhone he should just never released the iPhone at all. =_+

AT&T is even more stupid. I paid so much every month that you do not even want to know.

So, I was disappointed at the moment the sales lady told me NO NO NO NO. I wasn't interested to listen to her at all and came back home to do research on the 3G iPhone on my own. HMM!!!

Let me explain to you guys why I can't help you to get even ONE new 3G iPhone.

The $199 price for 8G 3G iPhone and $299 for 16G 3G iPhone, they are only eligible for current iPhone users/ subscribers, and it requires NEW 2-year contract.
It means people like me who already done with one year contract, I still need to renew 2-year contract with AT&T if I want to buy the new 3G iPhone.

So, now your question must be, how if I am not an old iPhone user or not an AT&T customer or even an AT&T customer but do not have an iPhone?

The answer is, you can get the new 3G iPhone at $399 for 8G and $499 for 16G, plus 2-year contract with AT&T, and also a bunch of activation fees.
So now you must be thinking AT&T is such an.......erm........you fill the blank for me. =_+

So, now your next question must be, will they ever released 3G iPhone without any contract.

The answer is, the rumour said in the future the new 3G iphone will be sold at $599 for 8G and $699 for 16G.

So, now your next question must be, "so Ming what's the big deal, just sign another 2-year contract with the stupid AT&T".... My answer to that is:

I do not know how long am I going to stay in the US, and truthfully AT&T is very pricey compared to other phone carrier (the line is very strong though).
Besides, WeeJian registered it as a family plan last year, so the account is under his name, and I can't just renew the contract whenever I want, moreover he is in Malaysia right now.

So, now your next question must be... "just buy the phone online and wait for the hacker to come out the software of unlocking the phone...duh"... My answer to that is:

Steve Jobs and AT&T are not that stupid afterall. Consumer is no longer get to buy any iPhone from Apple Online Store.
You have to walk in to Apple Store or AT&T store to sign the stupid new contract with them before you can bring your new 3G iPhone home, you no longer can do the online registration at home.
How sad it is huh.

All in all, I am still glad that I have my old iPhone with me.

I love my iPhone.

To read more about this, go to HERE.

I am melting in Seattle!!

2008-06-29T22:56:00.005-07:00

OMG!! The weather is killing me. Killing me from the inside out or from the outside in. JEEZ!! I can feel that my skin is burning. So, it's the freaking Summer season now. Now I know summer in Seattle starts from July. I checked the weather and it said 25 Celsius. It's only 25 Celsius and I feel like dying already, I wonder how I survived last summer. =_+ I still remember there was one day on last summer (when I was in North Carolina), the temperature hit 110 Fahrenheit, which is 43.33 Celsius, crazy or not!! It was so hard to breath that time, and I was feeling headache and nausea for the whole day. Anyway, I gotta apply sunblock everyday before I go to work, and I also have to steal my kids' sunblock to use when I went outing with them. Poor me.

Sigh. I have to take care of myself to make sure I wont turn darker and darker before I go back to Malaysia. Besides, I have to take care of my skin where I got bitten from the sweet little angel at work. The other day I got bitten like 6 or 7 bites on my right arm. =_+ I can tell you it's not fun. My right arm got so sore right away.

Show you the bite, the one not that scary one.

This one doesn't look scary and not that painful.

The next day it actually become pretty painful as the bruises extended!! The color now is even more disgusting. =_+ But this is the better one compared to other bites, I had bleeding bleeding one someone!!

Ok, forget about the bites. Back to Summer. So it's now summer holidays, kids are outta school. So everyday also have to plan some interesting activity or outing for them. Park is always a good place for them to go.

Have been wanting to show you guys Mt. Ranier but can't really get a nice picture of it.

At the park. Many many many people.

Get to play with water (for the kids la), but you wont see any of my kids in here because I have no money to pay for $10000 for each picture of the kiddo. =_+

I get to camwhore. The weather is stupidly hot!!

Get to see car show!

I like this one. cute one.

Brought those little monkey to Strawberry Festival (it's actually an art & music festival).

Hot chick under Hot sun. iPhone did the magic.

That's all about work.

It's all about my...hmm... "social life" now.

Went out to "tour" around downtown Seattle the other day (just sat in the car!!) as Ms. Airene T. forgot to bring her ID and we couldn't go into any......bar. Anyway thanks to Noriko the driver. =p
So we ended up in somewhere near our house again. And we came back like this.

I was allllll happy and Airene was...hmm....

Airene's birthday is tomorrow. But we decided to give her an early birthday surprise before Raymond leaves for HongKong. So we planned this and planned that and she appeared to be surprised a little bit.

She is now old already. Can get married and have baby already, which is the thing that the kids think she should do.

Her birthday cake. Tiramisu Cheese Cake. All the way from ChinaTown man!! Noriko and Ray were really amazing. But it was a little bit messed up (the cake). I wonder it was because of Noriko's driving skill or the hot weather. Hmm..

Airene. Me. Noriko.

Ray. Airene. Me.

So we ended up playing Mahjong. Well we already planned to play mahjong even before we decided to give Airene birthday surprise, because we thought Raymond was supposed to leave on yesterday. But in the end he told us he already postponed his air ticket to the next Saturday!! (!#()@*#)(*!*@#)@)*@&@*$#. We basically suffered ourselves to stay up late for nothing (we worked next day.)

Here is a short clip (not really, it's 4 minutes) of us playing mahjong. You can skip the most part but not the very last 10 seconds. Look at Airene!!

The last part of the clip. I don't know why it was separated. =_+

Now my mom knows what I do in Seattle.

BTW, we went for DimSum the next morning. LOL.

And another thing, Happy Birthday AT!! It's Okinawa btw. =p

We love Spring Rolls!

2008-06-24T17:40:00.006-07:00

We made spring rolls today! The vietnamese style and the chinese style! It's so expensive to eat them in vietnamese restaurant. It's about $1.50 for one!! for ONE!! and it's dollar. Not Malaysian ringgit! Expensive kan? So we thought why don't we just we make it on our own. So ta-da...here they are!

First, we gotta make peanut sauce. What's a vietnamese fresh spring roll (it's called Goi Cuon in Vietnamese) without peanut sauce?

The ingredients:
1/2 cup chunky peanut butter
1 tbs sugar
2 tbs hoisin sauce
1 tbs soy sauce
1 small garlic close, mashed to a paste
1 tsp chili garlic paste
juice of 1 lime
1.4 cup water

Just mix all of them together. Easy?

My version kinda dark because my soya sauce is kinda dark la.

The vegetables that you need.

You gotta cut the carrots and turnips. Erm, shredded to be exact. =p

Cook them with minced pork + soya sauce + white pepper.

Don't forget about shrimp too.

Eggs.

First, we made the chinese style spring roll.

Lumpia skin or we call it as popiah skin.

Put all the ingredients you want to eat and wrap it up.

The fresh one. with some peanut sauce on it.

Or you can fry it. Become fried spring roll.

Next, Vietnamese style fresh spring roll.

The spring roll skin. It's transparent. You gotta dip them in hot water and they will become soft.

Usually we will have shrimps, bean sprout, vermicelli noodles, cilantro leaves in it.

Wrap it up and become like this lo!

So there it goes our off day. *sigh* tomorrow have to work again. =_+

BTW, the fresh vietnamese spring roll is very healthy for you. =)

A date with Ichigo

2008-06-24T10:47:00.004-07:00

Last night, I had a rather sweet dream. I dream of Ichigo Kurosaki. If you are familiar with Bleach anime enough, you will know who he is. See, the thing is, I dream of him in a real person (as in someone I can touch physically). The funny thing is, in the dream, I met him in Seattle-Tacoma Airport. LOL. So I was on my way flying home to Malaysia, and he was on his way to Europe (Italy to be exact). I saw him standing by a store with his manager. So I thought he looks rather familiar and I walked toward him and asked "are you Ichigo?". He did not respond, BUTTTTTTTTT (BUT), he grabbed my hand and walked into a corner and told me ya he is Ichigo!! Wahahahahaha!! So I told him I like him bla bla bla and wanted to take a picture with him. So we had someone to help us to take picture but all the cameras didnt seemed to be working! So we were like standing at the corner posing in different ways (holding hand, hugging, that kind of pose. lol) while waiting for people to take picture for us. But after like 20 minutes, none of the camera seemed to be working, so I told not to worry because I have iPhone with me!! LOL. So I took out iPhone and took picture with him. lol. lol. lol. lol. lol. Then after that, we took a transit bus together to go to a different terminal (and we were hand in hand). LOL. When finally it's time to go he gave me a big warm hug and kissed me goodbye. AwwWWwwWWwww. That's when I woke up because someone sent me nudge in MSN. =(

I miss him already!

JEEEEZ. I don't know why I have this kind of dream. BUT I LIKE IT!!! I guess life in Seattle has been pretty lonely for me so I always this kind of weird dreams. =_+

Honestly, ever since Vjian left US for Malaysia, my life has been pretty lonely. =_+ I am that kinda girl will keeps everything to myself, and when the days I have problem I will try to "process" myself and do the problem solving on my own. But with Vjian, sometimes I will accidentally disclose some of my problems or secrets to him. It's rather hard to keep things from him when we talk on phone every freaking day. Do not get misunderstand by this, we are just very very good friends. First, we are on family phone plan. Secondly, I have edwin and he has someone's gf (LOL). So I like to talk to him, because on the sad or stressful days, we will kinda use the sarcastic approach, or talk indirectly into the problem, at the end of the phonecall we will feel better (at least I will, I don't know about him, probably after he sees the girls in the gym he will feel better already. lol). Sigh, but now he is in M'sia, I really hate the time difference!! =(

Jeez. Until this point, I don't know what to type anymore, because I miss Ichigo!

LOL.

the lovely cupcake

2008-06-22T19:55:00.005-07:00

Today is the day to make cupcake!

Everywhere in US is about cupcake. You can see cupcakes in every occasion, every birthday party, every bbq, every tea time with your girl friends...my point is, I stay in US for so long already but never made any cupcake lo, so malu kan? Back in Bemidji, my room mate can make cupcake and get everything ready in 30 min. =_+ So today I want to try out la.

Oh wait, I wanted to try to make a video while I am baking, but don't think anyone wants to listen to my kiddy voice. =_+

Recipe of vanilla cupcake (for 12 of them)
1/2 stick butter
3/4 cups sugar
1 cups all purpose flour
1 tsp baking powder
1/4 tsp salt
1/2 cup whole milk
1/2 tsp vanilla exract
2 large egg whites

The things that you will neeeeeed.
So, the steps are:

Firstly, soften butter in the mixer on high speed. Then, dizzle the sugar in with the buttter and beat until light and fluffy. Sift flour, baking powder and the salt together. Measure milk and vanilla. Afyer that add the flour mixture to the butter & sugar mixture. Beat well and set aside incoporated mixture.

In a clean mixer bowl (to me I use the rice cooker bowl. haha), beat egg whtes until soft peaks form. It will looks like something like that la.

Then, fold egg whites into cake better until incorporated. After that scoop batter into the prepared cupcake pans. I don't know why I forgot to take the picture. =_+

Then, bake in the 350 degree (F) oven for approximately 20 minutes or until a cake tester comes out clean.

Easy?

Ok. Now, the frosting part.

For the frosting, I chose to make Citrus Cream Cheese Frosting. The ingredients are as below:

1/2 stick butter
1 8oz package of cream cheese
1.2 tsp mixed citrus zest (I use lemon extract)
1 tsp citrus juice (I use Orange Juice!)
2 cups icing sugar
a few drops of red food coloring (to make it pink!)

So, the steps:

Firstly, soften butter in the mixer on high speed. Next, add creame cheese and beat until combined. Then sift icing sugar (confectioner sugar). Add about half of the icing sugar and citrus juice and zest to the butter/creame cheese mixture and beat on high speed to combine. Next, add remaining icing sugar in stages until desired consistency and sweetness is achieved (I used about 1 & 1/2 cups of icing sugar). Lastly, add in red coloring and mix until consistent color is achieved.

It should be ended up like this!

The cupcakes fresh from the oven!

The first one. Looks damn ugly!!

The 2nd, 3rd and 4th and so on did not look very good either. =_+

BUT!!! First timer not bad already hor???

It tastes good you know!!

I will make more tomorrow!! I am very sure they will look better! Heee!!

Thank You & Bak Zhang!

2008-06-17T19:39:00.006-07:00

Hmm.. I know there has been a lot of unforeseen incidents happening around me, but oh well, I am still trying to make myself feel better so that no one will worry bout me lo. Anyway, I am very very very very thankful to friends and family that have been there for me all these while. Thank you people for trying to cheer me up in any possible ways, thank you for the messages, thank you for taking time from your busy life to visit my dad, thank you for putting smile on my face again and again.

To make ourselves to feel better and also forget about all those stupid things that had happened at the work place, Airene and I decided to make Bak Zhang.

It took us a lot of preparations and times!! It's like you have to soak most of the ingredients over night.

Part of the ingredients.

More ingredients in line.

The glutinous rice. Basically we have to fry them first la.

Mushrooms. Yummy!

Pork.

Chestnuts.

Yellow beans?

The bamboo leafs and strings. They don't have those traditional type of strings available here la.

Ta Daaaaaa. After 2 hours of cooking it.

The first load.

A lot of Bak Zhang.

We made like 40 plus of them. It tastes pretty good you know! Can fight with my mom ar! =p Mummy, I can get married liao, because I know how to make Bak Zhang. =p Damn proud wei. Although it does not look as perfect as it should be, for the first time consider not bad already ok.

ok, so now who wants one?

it's not a drama. it happens.

2008-06-16T09:54:00.003-07:00

Something weird happened last night. I woke up from dreams (which I can't remember now) at around 4:30am, and had tears in my eyes. My body was aching all over. I felt that the bed was so uncomfortable, my neck and hands were so sore. Then, my phone was ringing. My body was too painful that I took hundred years to move myself to reach for my phone. Mummy called and I missed the call. Then, someone nudged me like million times through Msn. At the same time, I received sms from mummy. By the time when I was more alert about things that were happening around me, I realized that, oh, they were trying to tell me that grandma passed away like minutes ago.

There's so many things that are happening at home right now, I feel sorry and bad, and yet there's nothing much that I can do about it. I can so imagine the drama that is going to happen in the big family now. I am sincerely praying that grandma will pass away peacefully.

sigh.

just listen

2008-06-14T23:22:00.003-07:00

why my life has to be so messed up?

so many things have to happen at one time.

now even dad is in hospital, on Father's day. Sweet.

i seriously will go home now. no matter what.

edit at 0005: before my world collapse, for the first time i am saying this to you that i need you to be here with me. yesterday was my first time letting myself lose control, the first time letting my heart said whatever it had to be said, i am sorry but i have no regret. not even a sec.

How can I don't love my friends?

2008-06-12T11:57:00.003-07:00

My conversations with Jamie.

The story here is about him haven't got me any gift in a long time, and he would like to sponsor me 50usd for the new iPhone. =_+ BUT, the condition is I have to go back to Malaysia to redeem the cash!

Jeez! Do you think I will take your money?

Anyway, he offered 75usd in the end of the conversation. lol

Andrew told Jamie that "I will start applying for job after ming leave". This really cracks me up!! Something from Andrew!! You know how hard is it to get this Man-Cinderella outta his house ar?

*heeeeeeeee*

I love them!!

the lazy me

2008-06-11T00:01:00.003-07:00

*haiyo*
Stop asking me to buy iPhone ok? I know the 3G iPhone is coming out soon and with a ridiculous cheap price (start from 199usd), I still can't get over it that I paid so much for it when it first came out ok, so to be fair to myself, I am not helping anyone to buy! =p

But wait, maybe will buy for my brother. With his credit card. =p

Jeez. Seriously la. My life has been bored. Working & staying at home. I feel as if it's still winter... on the summer days. =_+

Last weekend went to colleague's house for BBQ. They have such a nice view in Queenanne! Jealous sial. Anyway the BBQ was fun!! Hanging out with them can be pretty crazy.

Jessica was trying to dance while Shellie was showing silly face. Antoni was looking good with my glasses!! And the hookah or shisha is definitely great!Look! My new toy! The Bamboooooo Fun, jeez, it's just a pen tablet la. And the Ziraffe I made!! Cute hor? And I am loving my nail polish!! I painted it together-gather with the kids! I am not being narcissist! WeeJian is way much more better than in this. Or even Pam. =_+ And someone has to definitely stop me from eating sushi. OMG!! I am craving for sushi every freaking day!!

I am Hyper!

2008-06-05T22:55:00.003-07:00

I am super duper happy today!!

He makes me happy, my friends make me happy, everyone makes me happy!

Just thinking about everything it makes me on cloud 9!!

*take a deep breath*

Phew.

On a side note, today was the first time at work that I told my supervisor I need to go out from the program to get fresh air.

It's overwhelming at work!!

*heeee*

I am still happy.

Happy me.

Contended.

*bliss*

He bought me ticket.....

2008-06-05T12:57:00.002-07:00

to fly from Penang to Kota Kinabalu....

not from Seattle to Penang though. =_+

and I haven't even got myself ticket to go home.

LOL.

grandma

2008-06-03T18:45:00.003-07:00

Mom called this morning, and I heard sobbing voice from mummy. That moment I know, uh-oh, it's not good. Mummy said grandma has been really sick, grandma is on the stage where she could no longer speak nor eat.

I often do not know how to react to news like this.

Remember few years back, my another grandma was diagnosed with the last stage of cancer and she passed away within that month. When I was riding on a bus to go back to Penang from KL, hoping to see my grandma for the last time, mom called and said grandma has already passed away. That moment, I did not know what to do but to lay on his shoulder and started to cry.

This morning when mummy told me about the news of the other grandma, I did not know how to keep my mom comfort but to tell her everything gonna be alright.

Since young, grandma has been the superwoman in my heart. She is so strong that no one could ever imagined. As grandpa passed away at such a young age, she has to take care of 7 children and also the family business. I still remember looking at grandma and admiring her the way she drives the giant truck (it has like 20 wheels, I am so freaking serious about this) at such an old age. Taking care of a big family is always not easy, as much as the amount of different opinions exist in the house, grandma never seemed to be unfair to any child of her or even her grandchildren (like 28 of them and also 5 or more great grandchildren =_+).

Back in the time when I was in grade 3 during primary school, grandma was so sick that she had to go through this major brain surgery in Bangkok. The sickness was so serious that the doctors in Malaysia convinced the family that it has very very very little chances of surviving. Family decided to send grandma to Bangkok, and with the Grace from God grandma survived through the surgery! It's definitely a rare success case!

But, after the surgery grandma could no longer act or talk like a normal adult, she was like a kid that needs 24 hours attention. Grandma never seemed to give up and she got better and better in just a short period. The thing that makes my heartache is every time when I look at grandma she has to swallow like 20 pills at each meal. =_+

Grandma's birthday..Few years back... grandma with some of her grandchildren (which including me in the picture!)

13 years after the surgery, grandma started to fall sick again. This time is the old people sickness. Mummy said grandma is trying to survive through as many days as she can.

I don't know what I can do. =_+

But, at least the minor thing that I can only do is to keep grandma in prayer.

a long post

2008-05-31T23:49:00.004-07:00

Hello Everyone!*lol*

I know I know I know it's been so long! I know everyone has been asking me where I have been doing. I know I haven't returned phone calls, messages and all that. I know I know I know and I know what you guys are thinking. And I so-very know you guys do not know my time as evidenced by calling me or messaging me at 4 or 5 or 6 in the morning!! Hellllo!!! Learn my time, go check the time of Seattle, Washington!!

Oh well, I have been busy working and doing nothing at the same time. =_+ How lame is that.

Constantly clean up my room. I don't understand why is it so dusty all the time!! I know, it's crazy to have 6 pillows and 2 quilts. This is what I do when I am not working. Cleaning and more cleaning, or try to catch some sleeps!

I remember the last conversation I had with Jamie, the last message I received from him before I fell asleep was "how's social life". Ah, good question. I would have told him (if I didn't fall asleep that time) I have no social life in Seattle. Oh wait. I am actually socializing with the kids everyday. =_+

Nah, sometimes, I do socialize a bit with Airene. =_+ I do go out with my colleagues. Like going out for a drink. Well, not really a drink la. Omg, I should cut down on drinking. It's really bad when I do not know what's my limit, apparently I'm pretty good la. =_+ I had 1 mango margarita, 1 house special, 2 midori sour in one night the other day and I did not feel a thing. =_+ I am not alcoholic if you are wondering. I really want to know what's my limit though. Noriko said she gonna help me to test how far I can go one day (on off day of cos!!).

Sing Karaoke with Airene lor, or other colleagues like Noriko, Raymond lo. =_= Love singing. Ah, I can't wait to go sing K with WeiYong & Vjian, and the other group of Randall, Edwin, Eric n Anthony! Haaaaaaa... I wanttttttt to go! so badly. =_+

Actually we went to sing K again yesterday. Then went to bubble tea shop played Jenga. Life without mamak. How miserable is that!! Talking about Mamak, I miss Malaysia so much. I have got my vacation leaves approved, now it's up to me whether I want to go home for a short while. Considering the air ticket is pretty pricey now, I have to rethink about the plan. Well, Pam and Vjian said I should not put price on the friendship, so I should go back no matter what!! Well...I have to see how's everything gonna turn out la.

Love going to the Beach. Went to Seahurst Beach with Airene and Noriko the other day. Love the weather.
We should do this more often. Go hiking, jogging, tennis, badminton, cook out, sushi, sushi, sushi, and more sushi. =_=

Part of the reason I love the place I work. I love this view. While kids are busying fishing, I get to enjoy and embrace the nature. *lol*

While walking kids to the library I saw this, the cutest BBQ pit ever!!

I can't remember when was the last time I played bubble blowing. One of my favorite activity with the kids! I am a kid at heart, mind you.

Went to Eagle Landing Park a lot lately. I love the beach there as it doesn't have too much of seaweed. It's like a place where you get to hike as well. You need to walk down from a very steep hill, and also 350 of steps down to the beach (Just think of when we need to climb those steps back up to the main road). It's tiring but I love it lo.

I brought kids there today. They were like complaining all the way like how tired they were. =_= Anyway, we were digging for crabs! It's so fun!! First, you gotta move away the rock, then you will see a lot of mini crabs running around! We did put them back into the water before we leave. =)

Another park that I love! It's Burien Community Park.

Flower. Flower. Flower. How can you don't take pictures with pretty flowers!

It can be a pretty high stress job that I am having. But in the end of the day, a smile from a kid can always makes your day. What can I ask for more when a kid gives you this? It definitely touches my heart when I know that he has to earn those bears from behaving good in school in order to get points to exchange for bears. How can I don't love them?

From the beginning of the year until today, I have heard at least 5 friends of mine getting married, get engaged, or has been talking about marriage with their bf. Shirley brought another good news the other day. How sweet is that! It makes me wonder, and think...erm..Maybe I should be more serious in the relationship. Wait, hold on. I didn't meant it that way as if I am not being serious in this current relationship. hack ya. I have been so serious! It is just, ah, when reality strikes in..., oh well, I think my girl's friends will understand what I am trying to say, or at least how I feel. I made this the other day, the recipe of a successful long distance relationship. I left out 'trust' and I did not realize it until I am typing this. Well, it was probably because I can trust the person I love easily, and that's why I did not think of it when I was doing this. Hmm..

There's so many things I have been thinking about lately. Sometimes I hope it will be as easy as picking up a dandelion, then blow at it, *poof*, the worries will all go away, happiness or dreams will come your way as you are making a wish on it when the pappus flying away from the dandelion clock.

*sigh*.

I want to go home.

2008-05-31T00:32:00.001-07:00

I have so many things to say but I am really busy lately.
=_+
Come back again yo.

唉

2008-05-22T22:43:00.003-07:00

%@&&#!@^!*@((!)!*@#^#%@&@^&%!)(@@^#
这是我此刻的心情。你懂吗？
很想家。其实真得很想家吗？还是厌倦了这里的生活？
一路以来，都很独立。坚强的自己反而常常让自己忽略了身边可依靠的肩膀。
唉。
其实也没什么，只想发唠叨。
又是那五月的记忆在作祟。
只能说，嗯，我想你。

WHAT!! David A. should have won!!

2008-05-22T02:10:00.003-07:00

As much as I love David Cook, but I still prefer David Archuleta as the new American Idol!!

I love guys who can play piano. =_+ I prefer guys who can play piano to guys that play guitar. Fine, I love guys who can play music. Ahh. But I still love David A. He is young, he is so cute, there is so much potentials in him!! Helllooooo!! I should have voted...oh well...I should have spent 3 dollars on him...ah.. it's too late now!

Wait!! I still don't understand!! Even the three judges thought he was so good and he actually rocked the whole season!! WHyyyyyyyyy... Tell me why... ):

Here In My Home

2008-05-21T15:01:00.002-07:00

Unity in Malaysia. Is it possible? Just believe and be hopeful. I believe the citizens, the Malaysians, they can do it. However, honestly, I am not too sure about the politicians and the government.

I miss Malaysia. (:

Tonight.....

2008-05-19T23:23:00.002-07:00

Keith Urban - Tonight I wanna cry

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
'All By Myself' would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Tonight, I am listening to this song over again and again. The feeling is so strong. The song says what my heart says. The differences are...I have the pictures of you and I in my computer.. I am not drinking...I am not making myself drunk to let go of the pain... It's May. It's an honest feeling. I miss you. (:

The Day

2008-05-19T00:23:00.018-07:00

Finally, it's the DAY!! The night before I was still reluctant to fly to Bemidji even though air ticket had been bought.Anyway, I had no regret going back to Bemidji. =p

So I took a 3-day off so that I can attend the graduation. On Thursday early in the morning I flew to Minneapolis. It was almost 3pm when I was there. The stupid Car Rental company wasted my time for almost 90 minutes. The traffic in Minneapolis was so so so so heavy, I was stucked in jam for 2 hours?? So, I went to Albertville Outlet to shop instead. =_+
When I reached Bemidji, OMG, I felt like I was home again. Dewey Avenue welcomed me with the left over Indian Mee Goreng and Buffalo Wings form Green Mills. *lol* After that we went to the neighbor's house party. I missed all the huggies that everyone gave me, apparently most of them knew that I came back from Seattle... How come la?? I hardly tell anyone also. =_+ Anyway, the party should be fun when you get to meet all the old friends, thse days during university life, hehe, but I was really tired the other night and it was freaking hot so I decided to end the night. =_=

I stayed at Nat + PMC + CW Pua's House when I was in Bemidji. I miss CW's room's smell. *lol* I used to stay there for like almost 2 weeks. Anyway, after that I tried to put on the graduation robe before go to bed.

The next morning, we went to the brunch at Lower Union to meet professors and students. So many many many parents were there, =_+ jealous la!! We took a lot of pictures lo, like 29380203 of them, below are just a few of them. =p

At the brunch.

With Dr. Beech and Nat's mom and aunty.

With the girls.

I miss school!!

The HS Hall, I used to go to class there like every freaking day.

With Alvin Senior and Molly - the family friends.

Miss you already.

Our part time hobby in Bemidji was cam-whoring. =_+

When can we take picture like this again la?

Even in the bathroom.

Some of us. Everyone was not ready. I love this picture.

Now we are ready!

Nat and I. The white shirt that I was wearing, I used to wear it when I was working for Aramark catering service. *lol* Damn cheap ar me, I just don't feel like wasting money to buy white shirt la!

In memorial hall. We are ready to graduate!

I have a family came to visit me!

The wind was so strong. Believe me!!

During the walk to John Glass Stadium. Wait, it's not a stadium. But I can't remember the name. =_+

Many many of us.

I have never seen so many people in Bemidji before. =_+

We were waiting. Waiting for everyone to deliver the boring speeches.

Can you see me?

With Prof Zhang. You don't want to know which class I took with her. =p She reminded me to earn big money in Seattle. I am actually earning peanuts in Seattle la.

Vitalieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. He welcomed me with this super warm hug the other night. I miss the times when he flooded my msn with "don't stay in front of the computer", or suddenly came to my room and said "ming, why are you always in front of the computer?", or get angry at me when I did not want to go house party, and I definitely will never forget he celebrated my first birthday in Bemidji with me!

Patrick and I with our family friends. I miss them!!

With the President, Jon

Patrick always has to make me look so short.

Finally, graduated already.

Seriously, by the time I was taking this picture, my mouth was numb, I did not know how to smile already!

With my favorite girls!

With the Williams and the Cobbs.

Aaron Aaron Aaron!! He has grown so much!

Throwing the mortarboard.

Flying high.

Everyone was looking for their mortarboard.

Now, taking a decent picture. Not ready yet.

A good one.

The wind was so strong.

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 1. Look at CheeWei's hair.

Take 2. Look at Chee Wei's hair. I still have the same jump. =_=

4 of us. Damn happy ar!

Smile!

The wind was killing us.

Seriously, the wind. =_+

Look at them and you know how strong is the wind. It was like 87.57 miles per hour. =_+

Look at my hair. =_=

A video as a proof of how strong was the wind.

Went back to Jon Glass to take more pictures. We were so happy man!

*haha* like the prom pictures only.

my weird smile.

With my one-day mom.

Nat's mom (Heidi) and Aunt ( Fiona) were damn nice ok.

In front of the tallest building in Bemidji. The Tamarack Resident hall. 13 floors. *lol*

At the Deputy Hall. This was my first time taking picture there!

2 mad women.

Wasting school's resources for the very last time.

At night we went to Dr. Beech house for dinner. The puppy Bonnie was so cute.

Then, the very last time to Keg and Cork, even though I was super tired and had to drive at 5:30am later.

The best Sex on The Beach that I ever had. It's like my "must-drink" every time go to Keg.

With my ex-floor mates.

Before I left Bemidji, I got to see the sun rise! Pretty isn't it?

Now I am graduated, I can tell everyone I got a Bull Shit from Bull Shit University. =_+ I mean a Bachelor of Sc (in Psychology) from Bemidji State University. =_+ After countless days spent on in front of the computers, million clicks on the FaceBook, uncountable days of procrastinating, countless days of day dreaming, $72928302920 dollars spent in tuition fees and living fees, and also a $40 dollars graduation gown spent, I am finally graduated.

If you had to ask me what's the smartest thing I have learned in school, I can tell you which is "I decided not to wear high heels during the graduation walk" ( I can see Nat nodding her head and agreeing with me). =_+

Now I am back to Seattle, come to think of it, I had a great time in Bemidji. Be it during the school days or during the last couple days, I enjoyed every single day of it. During the last trip I was really tired, but filled. I am thankful for everything!!

Last but not least, a song for you guys!

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

Thank you guys so much. Especially to the Williams family, Nat (and your mom and aunty), PMC, Chee Wei, and everyone everyone everyone, and the people who bought me flowers and cards, and also the phone calls and sms from thousand miles away. Thank You!!

Happy Mother's Day!

2008-05-10T22:42:00.003-07:00

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

I miss mummy's indian curry fish head!!! Mummy I know you are reading this....I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you..... =p

......happy bday.......

2008-05-06T12:18:00.002-07:00

to YOU, dear Wei Yong....

**~Happy Birthday~**

I wonder when only I can be there to sing you a birthday song? *sigh* Miss your sexy voice. RedBox RedBox RedBox!!

Just want you to know that you are very much loved by me!

Happy Birthday!

2008-05-03T22:11:00.002-07:00

I have been wondering where have you been.

Marie Digby is going to KL, I wonder will you be there to see her.

I have so many things to share with you but you were no where to be seen.

I hope all is well with you.

&

I really care.

Missing you, dear friend.

what a morning!

2008-04-29T12:35:00.002-07:00

While Bf is asleep, his friends are there to entertain me.

I would never say NO to Randall and Eric when they say they want to sing me songs through the web cam even though I would appear like a mad woman in the morning.

Obviously, while they are entertaining me, they are entertaining themselves too.

Their voices can kill a girl and melt a girl's heart, they never failed to make me feel warm inside and never failed to make me smile!

Well, as you can see, I can make them smile/laugh too. Really deli la (this is our language).
I am surprised that I let them see my golimar (our language) face this morning. Omg.

傻蛋s

2008-04-25T00:14:00.003-07:00

My life has been invaded by the TANs lately. The 傻蛋s.

David Tan.

Gary Tan.

Airene Tan.

p/s: the last picture so pretty, cos I was the one that took it. =p

;)

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